Zombie's formal introduction

[Zombie]

Ive made 2 threads before this, but I figure I should introduce myself. I'm 14 years old. and I cannot work in a schools environment, waking up at unhealthy times, to go to a facility where you alternate through 6 rooms, learning little each hour for 6-7 hours, in an uncomfortable stuffed up room, where you have to ask permission to go to the bathroom, and the only food available is this ty greasy burger and fries. Not to mention the people you are forced to be with are a bunch of brainwashed, dumb asses. and the people with most potential, still learn the same classes as everyone else, and are crammed with so much work that they simply have no time to study what they want (which doesn't matter cause thats the last thing they are gonna want to do.)

What I the most is being everyones physical and psychological punching bag. They call me feminine, ugly, gay, retarded, pointless, and crazy. without any reason, it just happened. They expect me to just give them stuff, This one dude threatens to kick my ass if I don't buy him pizza. I'm always getting punched, slapped, shoved, which is always seen as hilarious. If you ever make friends in school, stand your ground, if your too passive (like me) they will walk all over you. I cannot count the number of times Ill be standing in a circle with my so called friends (I don't know why I hang out with them) and suddenly be punched and grabbed and shoved out for someone else to come in. I cant defend myself because I'm weak, short, and clumsy.

I found this site in the summer and have been "ghosting" it since. Ive tried homeschooling before, my mom picked my classes and I still had to wake up and study at a certain time, didn't work for me. I being at home, my family is always concerned about money and looks, and everyday they discuss Christian issues (like my sister thinking a non-Christian president will ban Christianity) and make fun of me for not being christian, and not being normal, picking at every part of me, and bossing me around (my older brother joel physically intimidates me to get what he wants. as if hes entitled to everything in the house.) I cant stand company of family or friends so I usually sleep during the day and stay awake all night when every ones asleep. I just want peace and quiet.

I used to be just like my family members, almost a year ago, but I thought about religion and decided that following a religion that you've been taught to believe since you where born is nothing far from believing in santa. and when my family judged and resented me I gave some thought into judging others and conformity, and decided to live life as an individual. and here I am, almost one year later. proudly failing school and hoping to some day unschool myself.

thats basically my life for the last year. Ill be around.

[Darthmat]

:(

Good luck, and I just wanted you to know, I love you.

[Avenger]

welcome,i feel sorry for ya.hope things get better for you.

[Cosbydaf]

I view school the same way you do! That really sucks about those dumbasses messing with you. Maybe one of these days they'll grow up, but I doubt it.

Anyway, welcome to the forums! i think you'll fit right in around here!

[SoulRiser]

By the sound of it, your family members aren't really "christian". They've totally missed the point... Sometimes I don't know why I still even bother to write things like that, since there are so many bad examples of christianity out there, the real ones might as well just call themselves something else... [/rant]

My "friends" also pushed me out of their little circle randomly and whenever they felt like it (you know, it was bad for their "image" to be seen with me, and all that crap).

... Welcome to SS. I hope things get better for ya.

[thewake]

Hello.
Nice to see you here. Some kids pick on me, but I have some real friends and I just don't let it get to me that much. Our school is pretty strict on the bullying though, although they can go too far sometimes... Are there any other kids that get picked on like you do? Even in another grade? Maybe you could be friends with them.

I can't believe your family would actually make fun of you for your religious beliefs, I can't believe a human being could do that.
Well, good luck to you, don't be a communist.

[HeartofShadows]

Hey.. welcome to the save haven of fellow thinkers...

Your friends sound like a bunch of bitches man..
People like them are the reason I distrust people...
Oh and remember just because your scrawny doesn't mean your defenseless.
Remember brain over brawn...

[Alucard483]

Im very sorry to hear all that. I do know how you feel being the passive guy. i used to have that role till I kicked this one dudes ass in gym freshman year. Anyway welcome to the site.