It all begins, again. day 2 of hell

[SocialHypocracy]

Well, here I go. 8 minutes before I need to walk to school, and if I don't leave in 8 minutes, well my mother's going to scream at me and give my hypocritical comments on how school is important, even though she is a failure. I better get going too, if I walk into math class late, I'll get nasty looks and comments from my math teacher all period; and as I continue to try and escape, my lates and absenteeism will get my father, of whom I met a year ago, to stop talking to me or help me in any way what-so-ever. If I don't do good in school, I'm a loser in Mr. Business mans eyes.

So after that, I will proceed to make my way to gym class. We'll play badminton as all the preppy cumdumpster's make rude comments, and the their counterparts the males will kiss their ass like a puppy biting your heel for his afternoon kibbles and bits. Oh what joyfulness.

Then I will walk home for the second time during lunch, get pecked at a little bit more about my school, then I'll head back to English. Where work doesn't happen, only a social scene. They all sit there and talk. Some kids decide to scream at the teacher, others decide to make smart ass comments to whoever is in their line of sight - well, you know how it goes.

Gotta' watch that attendance. If I don't dad will call me and emphasize how much a piece of shit I am.
Into science I go, tired, aching, fed up with the bullshit. Then I go home, where I start to feel sick. But nobody has privilege to be legitimately sick but my mother. Sickness doesn't exist if she doesn't have it.

So for the rest of the day, I will stew about how angry I am that theirs nothing I can do, except let the chess master plan my next move for me. The next day I will go to school angrier, as their was never an escape at all. Oh yeah, I didn't do homework. Now I'll get treated even worse.

Take a hint, you people are fucked up.

Oh fuck, it's 8:23. I'm in for it now.

[SoulRiser]

Any chance you can get those parental units of yours to consider some alternatives? Like online schooling?

[SocialHypocracy]

That would make my life much, much better. Sadly that alternative is nearly impossible as in my mother's eyes, anything that's not a high school is for retards.

But it's worth a try, do they have online school for grade 9-12?
If so, more information would be greatly obliged.

-SH

Edit: Parental units, lol I like that. xD

[SoulRiser]

Quote:But it's worth a try, do they have online school for grade 9-12?

Depends on the school, but mostly probably yes. All the info I have about online schooling is here: http://www.school-survival.net/blog/p/o ... -know/2719

Quote:Edit: Parental units, lol I like that. xD

It's from Invader Zim (awesome show, btw)

[EnemyOfTheState]

Honestly, while reading this, I tried hard to imagine the scene in my head. And as I did, I raged more and more. And looked back on my own school, and went........this is exactly like my school

I also believe you should look into Alternatives. Try to hang in there. Damn wish I could help more.....

[SocialHypocracy]

I'm glad you understand how I feel man, for the longest time I was angry. I was hateful, resentful - any negative word you could think of, I had felt it. But it's gotten so past that, it's to the point where I feel like I have no control. I'm a 6" 16 year old and it still makes me cry sometimes. The stress and anxiety, it's just so intense.

When people say it's like a prison cell, it's actually worse because atleast in prison you have a fucking release date, the other things that makes it worse, it's like the cell gets smaller and smaller. I've never vented about school to anyone and the extreme emotional distress it causes me, but when I found this forum I felt a sense of happiness. EnemyOfTheState, your a brother of mine through our brain. I already sense you know how it feels.

We're like workers bee's, or a computer program. All these functions being installed so we can feed the higher ups. The fat corporate cats, all of it - worse part is, theirs no damned way out. Their is no option, although they say their is - you can simply 'not go to school and be a loser.' Awesome, thanks everyone.

^ That's not an option that's a fucking ultimatum.

EDIT: Their's not much you can do, but if you wish, add me to your buddy list. It's nice having someone to talk too, and whether or not you can help me isn't the point - relating to someone, and seeing eye-to-eye helps me, help myself. It's more of a mental health thing. Oh, and just so you know. I'm not a rebellious, gangster kid who's like 'FUK SKEWL IT SUKZ ASS." I'm just a normal kid, I don't have a social but that's of my own accord, somewhat, and I'm not a nerd. I just see all the problems in this system we are forced to oblige.


To all the people who took the time to read what I had to say, Thank you - it means allot to me knowing I have other people who care for what I have to say, but more then that, they understand. Thank you again.

[DiarrheaDELUXE]

Well, fuck me. We're almost exactly like. Keep going man, we need you for the revolution.

[RaiserZero]

These may be just words, but still, don't give in, for me school is also a horrible place to be in, but you also have bad things happening outside of it, so I can't imagine how bad it is for you. It's kind of the same thing with me in school, but when I'm biking or playing any sports with someone, it always relieves the pain.

I hope you the best luck has to offer.