Too young to drink ,too stupid to care.

[SH☮TGUNHEⒶRT]

I'm pretty fucking torn right now. Because I realized that I get away with ALOT of dangerous shit, and I'm not sure if I've just had the greatest time of my life or totally just made another turning point.
It all happened yesterday

I think I may have had alcohol poisoning, i

Before I go into this, I'm 15, I'm about 5"7, 138 lbs, and I'm kinda skinny for my height, my ribs show, stick legs and arms,etc.

All I ate yesterday was a glass of chocolate soy milk, a 50 calorie apple sauce, 100 calorie bread thin, and some grains of autumn wheat cereal.

Skip to good parts, so anyway, I get out of the library, and I'm hungry. But I wanted to get some vodka and walk along the train tracks ( I don't know why I do this), but instead I end up getting a blast.

2:00--> go to park on blast get really drunk

3:00---> Some christian charity guy gives us some vegetarian pizza and I have a couple bites, and a couple bites of a vegetarian sandwich. Really breddy.

5:00---> Get some swigs of strong ass whiskey from some chick ( not sure if she put anything in it). i'm really REALLY fucked up. I keep seeing people I know from school and they telling me I am a mess. My friend has to walk me to the bathroom or I would've peed on myself.

6:00--> Eat a few pieces of bread.Fall asleep on some guy .

7:00--> Through up all over my self, yet still asleep. Thank god he was still alseep.

8:00---> Throw up some more then I wake up, covered in my own vomit, really tired dirt everywhere. Guy I was sleeping on is still knocked out

I stay sitting there for an hour talking, and then manage to get up and catch the bus home in the middle of the night. BY this time I look a fucking mess, I'm covered in my own dirt, and vomit and I smell terrible. My head is swimming and I beleive to be experiencing nausea.


I get home yeah parents are worried as hell, my dad so pissed he makes me sit on the steps and hes says hes caling juvy, at this point i honestly don't care, and after sleeping in the fucking part cement is like a fucking cotton bed to me. The thing is they try so hard to make me feel as though I'm a fool, and I'm a laughing stock, but not really. My dad makes me go to my neighbors to shower and get a talk with her and my mom and then i go home.

So anyway do you think I should not drink beer anymore? I've done Four Loko but that didn't get me sick. Also I woke up at 6 am today, thinking I had to throw up, I tried throwing up but nothing would come out because I didn't eat for like 12 hours. SO I realize that I'm actually starving and I go down stairs and guiltlessly eat.

I'm not sure if it was the beer that did it or was it the fact that I did it on an empty stomache? I've never really did malt liquor, I always drink vodka and champagne. Well I've done Four Loko, but that didn't get me sick for some reason it just gave me a 24 hour stoned hangover.

Also, I'm not sure If I should feel bad about doing any of this and upsetting my parents. I know I'm a total dissapointment to everyone.
BUt then there that part of me that's like, well the things they want me to be are totally not me, and totally just stupid and pointless to me. It's hard to express myself to them because everything I like or do they think I'm crazy and being brainwashed.

But you know what, I hope my life ends up like Donnie Darko, at the end when he was just sitting in his bed laughing, as the entire world falls apart.

Also I've been listening to this song constantly for the last hour

Watch on YouTube

[Faby]

usual night.artist thread, move along

[thewake]

I'm a teetotaler, thus I have no experience with drinking, but I would surmise you have a problem. Might want to quit before this gets out of hand? Wait, I think it already has.

[Elfy]

tl;dr: you got pissed, your choice if you want to stop or carry on drinking.

[aaaaaaasd]

how does beer handle

[Absnt]

FuckingSpiderman Wrote:how does beer handle

I think this is sound question advice for thread if I were you.

[batboy138]

I honestly think you have a problem and need to get it together. Getting wasted and puking your guts out is never a good sign.

[thewake]

batboy138 Wrote:I honestly think you have a problem and need to get it together. Getting wasted and puking your guts out is never a good sign.

I know about signs. If you're skilled enough you can read the puke like tea leaves and predict the future.

[Faby]

Weswammy Wrote:

batboy138 Wrote:I honestly think you have a problem and need to get it together. Getting wasted and puking your guts out is never a good sign.

I know about signs. If you're skilled enough you can read the puke like tea leaves and predict the future.

I think I love you.

[thewake]

Faby Wrote:

Weswammy Wrote:

batboy138 Wrote:I honestly think you have a problem and need to get it together. Getting wasted and puking your guts out is never a good sign.

I know about signs. If you're skilled enough you can read the puke like tea leaves and predict the future.

I think I love you.

Watch on YouTube

[Sc00lh8er24]

Fucking dumbass. If you get drunk, get drunk enough. I drink enough vodka to reach the perfect drunk. Passing off isn't as fun as being a little vodka buzzed.

[LOON_ATTIC]

I know your relationship with your parents sucks and life seems really mundane and boring to you, but by doing crazy shit like that you'll just end up worse.

How many bottles of beer did you drink? You obviously drank too much. IF you do drink do it responsibly. Stop drinking more than you can, and be careful who you hang out with, try not to get an STD or some shit. Or raped. Or killed.

You should obviously try to get out more since your relation with your parents is so fucked but you don't have to do reckless shit like that. Try finding one group to hang out with that you can trust instead of always meeting random people you don't know. If that's even possible.

If not just get addicted to videogames and "waste your time" in them like everyone else in SS seems to do, since the world is so pointless. Seems more healthy than drinking shittons of alcohol from people you don't know and vomiting all over the place.
Sorry for not bothering to argue with you about that FML.

[HeartofShadows]

Wow well she's living life on the edge...

TO THE EXTREME!!!

[psychopath]

Getting drunk on the street and throwing up all over yourself is not a cool thing to do, and it's got nothing to do with freedom, if that's the reason you're doing it. Seriously, that's a loser thing to do, in 5 years time you'll think back and realise what a fool you were.

And fight club is a bunch of crap, it's got nothing to do with philosophy, it's a pseudophilosophic movie with clever sounding lines. There's a reason why stupid teenagers love fight club and real philosophers don't give a shit about it, because it sucks.

Is this where you want to be in 10 years?

Hidden stuff:

Because that's the direction you're heading in. Maybe that woman thought it was cool to act like a drunk homeless person on the streets when she was your age.

[thewake]

psychopath Wrote:Is this where you want to be in 10 years?

Hidden stuff:

If you want to be homeless, go with the hobo subculture. It's more "free."

[UnschoolShqiponjë]

Quote:All I ate yesterday was a glass of chocolate soy milk

That must have cut your mouth up.

[SH☮TGUNHEⒶRT]

Lunatic Wrote:I know your relationship with your parents sucks and life seems really mundane and boring to you, but by doing crazy shit like that you'll just end up worse.

How many bottles of beer did you drink? You obviously drank too much. IF you do drink do it responsibly. Stop drinking more than you can, and be careful who you hang out with, try not to get an STD or some shit. Or raped. Or killed.

You should obviously try to get out more since your relation with your parents is so fucked but you don't have to do reckless shit like that. Try finding one group to hang out with that you can trust instead of always meeting random people you don't know. If that's even possible.

If not just get addicted to videogames and "waste your time" in them like everyone else in SS seems to do, since the world is so pointless. Seems more healthy than drinking shittons of alcohol from people you don't know and vomiting all over the place.
Sorry for not bothering to argue with you about that FML.

Yeah, but I think some parts of life our worth living going in your own path. I think i am becoming an alcoholic, all i did today was dream of a mikes hard lemonade as i was stealing coffee from 7 eleven.

I'm pretty fine with the parent bullshit. My father comes home and yells at me everyday but I'm just too desensitized to even bother caring.

I do think I abuse alcohol slightly because I drink because i am shy, and when I'm drunk I'm not afraid to socialize, but the only problem is that they don't see the real me.

I'll admit, I'm not sure if you've ever been drunk, but that was one of the best nights i've had all week. And I was with people that werent out to hurt me, this 30 year old drug dealer let me cuddle on him and fall asleep and I was being watched by a bunch of punks.

I think life is pointless, but I try to have a good time and not waste too much of it. Because you never know what could happen. I wanna have fun and live on my own meaningful path. Meaning as in following morals and shit, which I do believe i have. Even though I still have that fuck everything side, which explains the alcoholism.

But I'd never be able to waste my time on videogames like everyone else I like to be in the real world and touching actual humans and things.

Drinking and being in the streets is fun as hell, exciting and dangerous as shit. I've gotten away with alot, and I travel alone as a girl.

It's a slippery slope and I'm sure i'd get bored of it if that was all I did, but sometimes, I think it's okay to throw away your fears and be like FUCK IT.

I'm learning to let go of my fears, but I don't wanna do it through alcohol. I don't think anyone should through substances, it comes from within. So I agree, getting drunk all the time is pretty drunk in certain circumstances.

But it is a plausible sport.

[SH☮TGUNHEⒶRT]

psychopath Wrote:Getting drunk on the street and throwing up all over yourself is not a cool thing to do, and it's got nothing to do with freedom, if that's the reason you're doing it. Seriously, that's a loser thing to do, in 5 years time you'll think back and realise what a fool you were.

And fight club is a bunch of crap, it's got nothing to do with philosophy, it's a pseudophilosophic movie with clever sounding lines. There's a reason why stupid teenagers love fight club and real philosophers don't give a shit about it, because it sucks.

Is this where you want to be in 10 years?

Hidden stuff:

Because that's the direction you're heading in. Maybe that woman thought it was cool to act like a drunk homeless person on the streets when she was your age.

This has nothing to do with the fight club, i just like the song. I honestly have no oppinion on the Fight Club because I havent even read the book, but the movie was pretty overrated.

I;ll be wherever i have to in 10 years. I'm still in summer school, and I've decided unless my parents seriously kick me out then I shouldn't dropout because I wanna have some kind of job opportunity just incase I decide to conform like everyone else. And besides you cant do shit unless you are 18.
Also, I'm anti-work, so maybe i will end up travelling and going to eurofestivals and living in abandoned buildings for a while.
Oh yeah you can just give up on the homeless propaganda, I know so many homeless, jobless people who are clean, having a great time and are actually very intelligent, intelligent enough to realize that the workforce and paying for housing is stupid.

[UnschoolShqiponjë]

Quote:And I was with people that werent out to hurt me, this 30 year old drug dealer let me cuddle on him and fall asleep and I was being watched by a bunch of punks.

*Hatemylifeiwanttodie thinks...*



*I think...*

[SaintVicious]

god dam youre gonna get rapedlol

[alexander144]

hatemylifeiwanttodie Wrote:stealing coffee from 7 eleven.

Goes for the rest of thread to but that just seems like such a troll thing to put in.

[Absnt]

Two things you should consider:

1.) Only getting semi-drunk so you can still function on a sensible level if there's a risk of getting hurt or caught.

And.

2.) Only getting shitfaced to a point were you can't think when you're in a place that will allow you to do it without getting caught or killed.

If you seriously think you're becoming an alcoholic, do what you need to do to stop. Becoming an alcoholic is much the same as becoming a drug-addict. It fucking sucks. I've never had issues with alcohol, but I know some people who have, and you don't want to turn out like them.

[SH☮TGUNHEⒶRT]

alexander144 Wrote:

hatemylifeiwanttodie Wrote:stealing coffee from 7 eleven.

Goes for the rest of thread to but that just seems like such a troll thing to put in.

[LOON_ATTIC]

savagesociety Wrote:I do think I abuse alcohol slightly because I drink because i am shy, and when I'm drunk I'm not afraid to socialize, but the only problem is that they don't see the real me.

I'll admit, I'm not sure if you've ever been drunk, but that was one of the best nights i've had all week. And I was with people that werent out to hurt me, this 30 year old drug dealer let me cuddle on him and fall asleep and I was being watched by a bunch of punks.

I think life is pointless, but I try to have a good time and not waste too much of it. Because you never know what could happen. I wanna have fun and live on my own meaningful path. Meaning as in following morals and shit, which I do believe i have. Even though I still have that fuck everything side, which explains the alcoholism.

Drinking and being in the streets is fun as hell, exciting and dangerous as shit. I've gotten away with alot, and I travel alone as a girl.

I'm learning to let go of my fears, but I don't wanna do it through alcohol. I don't think anyone should through substances, it comes from within. So I agree, getting drunk all the time is pretty drunk in certain circumstances.

You pretty much answered your own question... it's possible to get out of shyness just by talking to people regularly and having you try to get out of it, as you get more comfortable with them you'll grow confidence. Alcohol in excess will just fuck you up in the end, it kills your brain cells and shit.
A drug dealer doesn't seem like a very harmless person either.