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I wasn't good enough at encouraging people to be kinder, and removing people who refuse to be kind. Encouraging people is hard, and removing people creates conflict, and I hate conflict... so that's why I wasn't better at it.

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Rediscovering Your Childishness
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Rediscovering Your Childishness

All right, this is going to be a lengthy post.

So I recently posted in the Emotional Support and Venting Forum about feelings of vindication and such, writing those was kind of a gut reaction and for me it felt really weird, because honestly, I never really thought I'd feel that way. Anyway, bombs away.

I wrote about my experience about how I felt my childhood was robbed and I think that many people share the same issue. When you get to a certain grade in school, things stop being all fun and games. Shit gets real. Suddenly you're forced to do math, and read about shit you don't care about.

For me, that was fucking middle school. Hell, I still picture that entire time period being pretty fucking grey and I've mostly blacked it out. I felt dehumanization there.

What's funny is that a certain fire inside me was lost. That fire was childishness. I mean, people say I'm kind of childish, but I don't feel that I properly reconnected to it, until recently.

I was in this library which I used to go to as a kid. I decided to go there out of pure nostalgia, as well as just to print some papers. I decided to hang out there and just look at old books I used to read and love, and I remember seeing all the posters; they were books, music albums, TV shows, etc that I used to know and love as a kid.

At that moment, it fucking hit me hard. I started fucking crying. I couldn't help but cry because I reconnected to my childhood again, it was like finding the lost link, almost a return to it. I felt that I could finally continue where I left off, but this time with the knowledge as an adult. It was such a glorious moment. I still remember the night it all went fucking wrong and my battle with chronic depression would begin... I feel being in that old library slayed those demons and it allowed me to finally move on with my life. It was a beautiful moment.

For all the School Survivors, especially those who are adults, try to reconnect to your childhood again. Try to visit old places you loved, read old books, watch old shows, etc. Do this as a practice. Let your head be free. I love to draw with childhood music playing in the background. It helps me connect to my inner child.

Hope y'all take it to heart.

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RE: Rediscovering Your Childishness

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