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Death to my College Dreams!
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Death to my College Dreams!

After meeting with the faculty advisor today, it's basically occured to me that between work and college, the latter has promptly and effectively lost all value. I had an epiphany today after that meeting which showed me that initiative is worthless in college, and that anything done out side of the boundary of their own guidelines and plans has no meaning or impact.

Basically a case of "our way, or the highway". Self-employed business owner of two years with massive amounts of hours under his belt for providing consulting services of a wide variety? "that's nice but you still need an internship". Starting a site to do research on topic of interest as well as look forward to writing books? "great, but they won't have any impact on your academic record".

Even more ironic? Fail a class twice? Third time will clear only one of the fails. Thus I'll have somehow both passed a class and failed the same class I passed on my transcript because that makes total sense. It's all bullshit. They force you into some sterilized controlled environment and hand you a list of "accepted activities" with anything out of the ordinary being "good" but worthless because they won't translate it into anything beneficial on the academic record.

I guess that's what happens when they've got a monoply on higher education and credits. What better way to protect the monopoly than by refusing to accept anything that grows beyond the boundaries? A bacherlor's degree is nothing more than a piece of shit paper serving to note that you stuck to the rules and played the game.

Fuck the game. I don't need a degree to research and write. I don't need a degree to get a job or career, I've already got one. I'll pretty much swear on my life now that if I ever reach a point in life where I'm up for honorary degrees, I will bluntly and profanely refuse them. Don't give me a worthless document. Turn around and look in the fucking mirror and realize how you're obsession is destroying initiative. Why should students try to do something extra when it won't count for anything? All these rules and guidelines just exist to make sure we play the game instead of giving us guidance and opportunity to access greater knowledge.

My biggest issue is dealing with my mother. She'll obviously freak out and to make matters worse, she's got the old timey native country obsession about reputation and appearance in the community. I keep telling her "this is America. Tell them to shove their gossip up their fat asses" but nope, having shitty self-esteem and some illiteracy and her upbringing basically makes this an important concern(which means I have to inevitabely be the one to tell people to mind their own fucking businesses before I shove my foot up their ass).

Oh well, I look forward to a bright future untainted by the oppressive fucktards in higher education. Waste of a load of money.

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Shit Brain. At least your damn decisive. Good luck without college.

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You'll do fine without it.
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Depends on the field of work you're going into.

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RE: Death to my College Dreams!

Well, im planning on doing research on stuff like national security and warfare, so its easier to do amateurly than say like engineering or medicine or something.

So yeh, field has an impact as well as your situation. Mine is a case of "why the fuck am I in college when I already have what college promises me Ill get when I finish?"

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status was what Iblis claimed for himself.

tell your mom that. I dare you.

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To further note, I've done some research and theoretically, one doesn't need a BA degree to get into the graduate PhD program(since PhDs are technically an "apprenticeship" of sorts). It's a massive stretch but my life has been following the road less traveled, so I'm planning to take the GRE, accelerate my research work to try to get something published(if not somethings), make some money at work, and hopefully get into a PhD program within 2 years.

Of course, it's unusual as fuck, but I haven't seen any requirements that explicitly state that a degree is required and seeing as folk have entered masters with business experience it seems possible even if insanely difficult(and as someone with 4 years of work experience, 2 of which as a self-employed consultant, I have something worth something).

We shall see. If I do manage to get it, then it'll be something of a fuck you to traditional academia because I'll have basically paved my own road into academia without relying on guidance and certification through undergrad. I just need to deal with my mother's potential to bitch about it because she's got that annoying narcissist's habit of being all pessimitstic and a downer. It doesn't affect me but I despise the personality due to my own views on family unity and independent personal development.

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Go for it Brain. You're known for your boldness. Time to put it into play damn it!

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Boldness? I'm pretty sure I've got like sociopathic tendencies or something serving as the primary motivating factor. I just happen to have an internal code that keeps me under control.

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I'm starting to develop that actually. I'm starting to get the "I don't give a fuck; play with life" kind of feeling. It feels really good actually.

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RE: Death to my College Dreams!

Beats being a psychopath. Those guys dont have empathy at all. Sociopaths on the other hand feel that stuff but arent constrained or otherwise burdened by it.

It would explain a lot...

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Aren't sociopaths more socially manipulative while psychopaths straight up use violence?

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A sociopath will generally start from social manipulation but aren't shy about violence if required. I believe the difference is that in the end, for a sociopath both manipulation and violence are tools they have no qualms about using for a goal, whereas psycopaths don't need a reason to be violent and don't bother with social manipulation.

Basically, a sociopath is a step above a psycopath, but technically, psycopaths have a tendency to be drawn in to follow sociopaths(or be manipulated by sociopaths). Gang leaders, for example, tend to be sociopaths while their enforcers tend to be psycopaths(since they don't need anything more than permission to commit violence to do it eagerly).

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Good job, not many choose to pave their own path. Truly, I would like to get advice from you on how we can change or at least dent the paradigm. This isn't the industrial revolution anymore so we have more options.
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Confidence, planning, and sheer will. This is America. Look at the richest innovators of this country. They didn't follow the rules or stick to tradition. They didn't hide in a safe bubble on the paved path to medicoracy. They took a big ass risk and fought for their investment till they succeeded or they failed(and picked up the pieces to try again).

Nothing stopping you but your own mind. Don't fall for preconceived notions of what you can and can't do. Find exceptions and if they don't exist, have a big compelling reason for it to exist(even if only for you, it's a start by setting precedent).

IMO educational change will start by risk-takers who tear through the curtains put in our way and create precedent proving the lack of necessity for the outdated traditional systems. Then, with enough tears, the whole goddamn thing will come apart.

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(04-18-2017 12:45 PM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  Confidence, planning, and sheer will. This is America. Look at the richest innovators of this country. They didn't follow the rules or stick to tradition. They didn't hide in a safe bubble on the paved path to medicoracy. They took a big ass risk and fought for their investment till they succeeded or they failed(and picked up the pieces to try again).

Nothing stopping you but your own mind. Don't fall for preconceived notions of what you can and can't do. Find exceptions and if they don't exist, have a big compelling reason for it to exist(even if only for you, it's a start by setting precedent).

IMO educational change will start by risk-takers who tear through the curtains put in our way and create precedent proving the lack of necessity for the outdated traditional systems. Then, with enough tears, the whole goddamn thing will come apart.

Fuck yes Brainiac! This is pretty much what I've been learning recently: have a fucking swagger. In the end, pretty much anything is a risk, so there's always at the first sight, a 50/50 shot. But, as I've grown older, I've grown to like the odds, no matter how shiet they might be.

Seriously though, you really can do anything if you put your mind to it. I've been reading books on stock investment as well as military leadership recently. Some of the most informative books I've read in a long time. If only I were efficient with my time back in school...

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Independent researcher! That's the path I'm heading down. Now that I've defined it, time to plan it out. I knew there was a name for the stuff I had in mind.

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Shit, Brain's gonna start a research company!

I've heard NC is a good state for this kind of shit.

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RE: Death to my College Dreams!

im gonna disagree with you about rich innovators.

somebody rich had to support them either by investment or by subsidy. you cant start with nothing and get HUUUGE.

To that end, what degree of confromity to the ways of wealthy investor types was necessary to justify the risk?

i mean really, Bill Gates foundation wants all 50 states using common core. what a fuck-ass

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