Weird Dream

[Subb]

I'm in one of the classrooms in my church, with a ton of people, this girl included (This girl has been in my dreams many times, and is the first person in real life that has been in my dreams. She's an acquaintance from church that I might have a crush on). It's dark outside, and what would be florescent lights in the real world give off this deep red glow, making the whole classroom ominous. Class is in session, and the teacher is giving a lecture. I turn and see this girl and a couple of her friends crawl under their desks and start drawing on the underside. The whole class follows, and I start getting angry because no one is paying attention to the teacher.

So, I get up, walk to the light switch, and turn the lights off. The class sighs and gets out from under their desks, and the air is thicker because I just ruined everyone's fun. I go to my seat, and someone gets up turns the lights back on. While the class is busy complaining at me, someone turns and asks this girl "So, what do you think of Subb?" She turns to me and replies "He's nice, but... He thinks we're friends when we're not, like he thinks we're closer than we are. He thinks he knows me a lot, when he really doesn't know me at all." I wake up after that.

[James Comey]

(03-20-2016 04:52 PM)Subb Wrote:  I'm in one of the classrooms in my church, with a ton of people, this girl included (This girl has been in my dreams many times, and is the first person in real life that has been in my dreams. She's an acquaintance from church that I might have a crush on). It's dark outside, and what would be florescent lights in the real world give off this deep red glow, making the whole classroom ominous. Class is in session, and the teacher is giving a lecture. I turn and see this girl and a couple of her friends crawl under their desks and start drawing on the underside. The whole class follows, and I start getting angry because no one is paying attention to the teacher.

Did the red glow happen to look like this?



(In all seriousness, you'll want to stock up on good music, this might be a rough as hell journey, trust me when I say this)

The fact that you're angry that no one is listening to the teacher means to me its some sort of internal frustration with yourself. You feel no one is listening to you, whether that be your family, friends, or these acquaintances of your supposed crush. I felt this a lot, because deep down I felt this feeling of being excluded somehow. It's not great feeling it either, and more often than not it can be irrational. It's these kinds of times where you feel you can dictate life.

(03-20-2016 04:52 PM)Subb Wrote:  So, I get up, walk to the light switch, and turn the lights off. The class sighs and gets out from under their desks, and the air is thicker because I just ruined everyone's fun. I go to my seat, and someone gets up turns the lights back on. While the class is busy complaining at me, someone turns and asks this girl "So, what do you think of Subb?" She turns to me and replies "He's nice, but... He thinks we're friends when we're not, like he thinks we're closer than we are. He thinks he knows me a lot, when he really doesn't know me at all." I wake up after that.

Oh boy, this is a very common feeling. It's this very inevitable and helpless feeling of insecurity you get when you have a crush. Sometimes you'll feel this feeling of defeatism, that this trial in romance is ultimately pointless, because you won't get to the promised land. Alternatively, you might find yourself looking for answers online, etc, or listening to so much "deep" music or "deep" reading, but ultimately it's futile.

I'll tell you this, part of finding out is risk taking. This is one of those times. Whether you get to the promised land or this ends in shambles, you'd have learned something in the end at least, and life will eventually go on.