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I wasn't good enough at encouraging people to be kinder, and removing people who refuse to be kind. Encouraging people is hard, and removing people creates conflict, and I hate conflict... so that's why I wasn't better at it.

I was a very, very sensitive teen. The atmosphere of this forum as it is now, if it had existed in 1996, would probably have upset me far more than it would have helped.

I can handle quite a lot of negativity and even abuse now, but that isn't the point. I want to help people. I want to help the people who need it the most, and I want to help people like the 1996 version of me.

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Thank you to the few people who have tried to understand my point of view so far. I really, really appreciate you guys. You are beautiful people.

Everyone else: If after everything I've said so far, you still don't understand my motivations, I think it's unlikely that you will. We're just too different. Maybe someday in the future it might make sense, but until then, there's no point in arguing about it. I don't have the time or the energy for arguing anymore. I will focus my time and energy on people who support me, and those who need help.

-SoulRiser

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Rainbow Hi! I'm new around here...

Hi everyone :D I am an almost-14-yr-old living in Southern NY. I have no motivation to go to school at all. I get up in the morning angry and I don't stop being angry until about 2 AM when I get to go on the Internet and fool around.
I liked school until about 4th grade. That's when the homework picked up and the Common Core :grindteeth: made its way into my life. :fu: ANYWAY: I still didn't have too much of a problem until 7th grade. The freaking CC had taken complete control of the curriculum. We had to write chapter summaries of a stupid book and analyze each sentence until it made no sense. As an overanalytical person, English became hell for me.
By then, I had realized that everyone around me was a crazy, brainwashed conformist. Everyone. Even my best friend. So I fell back on my only friend who wasn't. She was pretty much the only one I talked to. We would sit together at lunch and talk nonchalantly about how we wished we could die before our next classes. I was diagnosed with severe depression but my parents refused to remove me from school. The depression got so bad that I didn't trust myself to be alone in the kitchen with all the knives.
Finally, in January, my parents allowed me to switch schools. I was going to a private school. At first I loved it. But then I realized that the money my parents were paying for "personalized learning" was only funding loads of homework. Meanwhile, dancing replaced the healing that the therapy wasn't giving me. I don't think a lot of people can say this, but dancing literally kept me alive.
My therapist has recently pointed out that when I'm on winter/spring/summer break or when it's a weekend, my depression and anxiety are pretty much gone. But when she sees me on weekdays, they magically reappear. Hmm. :jawdrop: REALLY? :sarcasticclap: I wonder why!
School is pretty much a prison. Whenever I'm there I want to EXPLODE! :thunder: But of course when I try to say anything, I get yelled at, so I keep my mouth shut. :tapedshut: Schoolwork and homework are unpaid labor. Students are forced slaves. So yeah. And when people say "You know, kids in Africa don't get educations. They would kill for yours!" I just want to SCREAM FOR HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS! :upset::twisted::ranting::tripleevil::mad::evil::fu::grindteeth::brickwall::cens​ored: so yeah.
Sorry that you had to read all that. :hiding: but now you know a little bit more about me! :grouphug:
03-24-2015 05:58 AM
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