Life of an Attention Whore

[brainiac3397]

Pleb. Us rich ppl just buy new cloths. Why wear that dirty things more than once? Y U NOT RICH?

[Gwedin]

(11-05-2016 03:35 AM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  Y U NOT RICH?

not everyone can be born in the united states of richmerica ;_;

it's just occurred to me how little clothes i really have (and half of the clothes i do have are falling apart). when/if i get some money i will have to prioritise making myself look spiffy.

[brainiac3397]

(11-05-2016 03:56 AM)Gwedin Wrote:  

(11-05-2016 03:35 AM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  Y U NOT RICH?

not everyone can be born in the united states of richmerica ;_;

it's just occurred to me how little clothes i really have (and half of the clothes i do have are falling apart). when/if i get some money i will have to prioritise making myself look spiffy.

My clothing is basic as fuk. 2 jeans, a bunch of different color polos(like a lot of bunch), and then two suits I bought recently along with 2 trousers and two dress shirts.

Trying to upgrade to suits and classiness is expensive, so lots of mix-n-match. On my lazy days though, I just throw on a polo.

[Gwedin]

(11-05-2016 09:56 AM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  My clothing is basic as fuk. 2 jeans, a bunch of different color polos(like a lot of bunch), and then two suits I bought recently along with 2 trousers and two dress shirts.

Trying to upgrade to suits and classiness is expensive, so lots of mix-n-match. On my lazy days though, I just throw on a polo.

i have two pairs of jeans and this one thing like pic related (the sweater thing) except with a bunch of holes


lots of t-shirts though but i don't often take that thing off except to wash it so who cares about those. my autism shoes are also falling apart. will have to replace those quite soon.

i'd look beautiful in a suit (as though i don't already). god knows what i'd get if i actually had money. probably would go pretty basic too

[Shurpeh]

What the fuck are autism shoes

[Gwedin]

(11-05-2016 10:42 AM)Shurpeh Wrote:  What the fuck are autism shoes

/fa/ meme i think

[brainiac3397]

(11-05-2016 10:31 AM)Gwedin Wrote:  

(11-05-2016 09:56 AM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  My clothing is basic as fuk. 2 jeans, a bunch of different color polos(like a lot of bunch), and then two suits I bought recently along with 2 trousers and two dress shirts.

Trying to upgrade to suits and classiness is expensive, so lots of mix-n-match. On my lazy days though, I just throw on a polo.

i have two pairs of jeans and this one thing like pic related (the sweater thing) except with a bunch of holes


lots of t-shirts though but i don't often take that thing off except to wash it so who cares about those. my autism shoes are also falling apart. will have to replace those quite soon.

i'd look beautiful in a suit (as though i don't already). god knows what i'd get if i actually had money. probably would go pretty basic too

Factor in a tailor to make it nice and fitting, and it gets more expensive. Cost me $90 to tailor two suits(though they came out perfect so...worth it probably)

[AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA]

get emo clothes, youll be pretty rad, dye your hair black, um emo emo stuff

[brainiac3397]

Or you can do ultra cheap lazy classy. You get a plain black sweater, wear jeans with a belt, put on black loafers, wear a big watch, and BAM you're like a 50+ charismatic dude who spews class and confidence in such simple attire.

[Gwedin]

i leave the ward tomorrow and move into a boarding house with 17 or 18 other people. not too thrilled about that but what can ya do. very very nervous. (have to buy groceries for the first time! O.O)

when i'm moved in and settled i'll write a proper blogpost detailing how life at the ward has been. stay tuned (;

[Gwedin]

ok i'm moved into the boarding house and i have groceries. i don't even feel anxious much

ward was fun ngl. i went in expecting some movie tier "DO WHAT WE SAY TAKE THESE PILLS EAT THIS FOOD" shit but nah it was really relaxed. they had this social worker chick help me "get into" the real world easily (find accommodation, get on the welfare monies etc) which was very nice. she made me chocolate cake too :3

surprisingly they didn't put me on medication except for this thing to relieve anxiety that i could take whenever i wanted. they also took away my diagnoses of dysthymia and major depressive disorder which kinda sucks for the whole "i'm an attention whore look at how damaged i am" thing. also kinda sucks cuz it's like "huh i'm not depressed, this is how i'm supposed to feel, this is kind of shitty".

the people at the ward were kinda anti social. i was expecting people to be more talkative but that simply wasn't the case most of the time. there was also a huge gender imbalance which baffles me. everyone except for some old lady and another 50 or so yo lady were blokes. kinda expected more tumblr tier girls but there wasn't a single one in sight! i was the most tumblr tier there i reckon!

the nurses were hella cool. a mix of oldish and young pretty ones, with the oldish ones being far more useful as far as actual advice and helping me understand my retard head goes. the younger ones were clearly less experienced and more of a "tell me your problems you can vent to me but i won't be able to sort shit out for you" type. idk. they were all real friendly though, almost to the point of treating you like a baby.

the rooms were ok. i though it might be one of those ones where you got a roommate but nope, you get a room to yourself. the nurses insisted on keeping a curtain on your windowed door open at night so they could stick a bright arse torch in your room. the only real complaint would be the less-than-comfortable bed but i'd be being an entitled prick to complain about that honestly.

the food was fucking brilliant compared to what i was used to at home. (ACTUAL NON-WATERED-DOWN MILK ANYONE??)

i need to get a fucking job now

[Gwedin]

oh also i volunteered for this place because i need experience and references and something to get my out of the bloody room.

should b fun

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this all sounds so exhausting and tiresome. i want to kill myself again lol

[Gwedin]

oh man i don't think this will work out at all
patHETIC

[Username]

Keep with it, it'll come eventually.

[Gwedin]

(11-20-2016 09:41 AM)Username Wrote:  Keep with it, it'll come eventually.

yeah we'll see eh.

volunteer place hasn't called so i might pop in to see them later today. bleh, i just wanna do something.

assburger question: exactly how rude is it to decline an offer of meeting someone for coffee?

[Username]

Well, why don't you want to have coffee with said person.

[Gwedin]

because i'm fucking lazy, don't like coffee much and like being in public even less

[Username]

One would usually have tea or mention the last reason.

[Gwedin]

i just said "no" instead

can't even brush teeth without fucking out. just keep going it'll get better lol. wasn't this bad when i god damn got here

[Gwedin]

it's the god damned waiting that's the problem man. too much time to think fucks a fella up. not good. would like one of those cursed remotes like in that one adam sandler movie in times like this.

don't think i'll pursue an apprenticeship. would mean going back to get ncea level 2. will stick with the goal of getting some shitty min wage labouring job. implying anybody wants somebody like me as an employee. ah but this one guy shows interest in me! but oh the waiting god damn the waiting is doing my head in (he might never even contact me again! hah, imagine that!)

i'll just off myself if i stagnate for too long.

xiu xiu is my favourite music artist

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what is that sinking feeling in one's chest called

[Gwedin]

honk honk honk honk honk hooooooooooooooooooooooooonk

why are people such loud gays. why are dole bludgers so especially annoying and loud. why am i so bitter. why am i ending questions with periods. what is the purpose of this post?

o frustration, how i love you

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i love this song



Watch on YouTube

save me save me~

[Gwedin]

that whole album is p good honestly

dear god i hate myself is still their best though

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cheeeeewwwwww the corner off your mouth! you have never liked the taste!

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all i want is to be drunk

[Gwedin]

Reading law at your desk
Praying for your parents
They are so proud of this
You are working so hard
All alone at your desk
Obligated to free them

not me though lmao

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everybody's dropping like flies

[brainiac3397]

wat

[Gwedin]

(12-02-2016 02:26 PM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  wat

[brainiac3397]

yo mama

[Alistoriv]

I love Xiu Xiu :')

[Gwedin]

(12-03-2016 12:40 PM)Alistoriv Wrote:  I love Xiu Xiu :')

ily ali <3

[Gwedin]

grey and miserable out.

feel more depressed than usual today. gotta go to the shop to pick up a few things. sitting here listening to shitty sadcunt music instead. bleh. fucking job would be nice to distract myself from shitty feelings but lol i'm so pathetic in my pursuit to get one.

blooooooooooooooooooooooooog! i feel like a woman every time i make a shitty entry into this "blog".

[brainiac3397]

I like grey. That's why I want to have a home in Scotland, where the weather is generally overcast and a tad chilly. The sun is evil.