Life of an Attention Whore

[Gwedin]

I wear winter tier clothes all year round so I end up sweating very easily so I find I agree with you

actually it's still too fucking hot out despite it being so grey. ought to go down south later on to live. hmph

[Gwedin]

might be going back to some school type thing to get NCEA level 2. would get my restricted licence there too. don't know yet. will know more tomorrow or on monday i think. ideally i'll be going into this work kind of thing but my age may be an issue there for whatever reason.

ugh, waiting.

i can't be bothered retyping this so:

<Gwedin> man
<Gwedin> wish i never deleted my diaries
<Gwedin> they were
<Gwedin> good
<Gwedin> :|
<Gwedin> there was
<Gwedin> three of them
<Gwedin> that i deleted
<Gwedin> gay.
<Gwedin> my blog is
<Gwedin> horrible
<Gwedin> in telling me
<Gwedin> how my thoughts have changed
<Gwedin> i don't feel compelled to write a lot in my blog
<Gwedin> whereas with the diaries
<Gwedin> it was different

[brainiac3397]

Who needs diaries pfft.

[Username]

Well, Gwedin does.
This is in order to see how his thoughts have progressed from his younger days. He had written his thoughts into a diary, which are now, much to Gwedin's regret, lost. Although his blog serves the same purpose as a diary would, Gwedin feels that it is not sufficent to serve this pursuit. Therefore, his expressions of regret are, in the eyes of many, considered to be understandable and justified.

[Gwedin]

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee christmas. i bought my lil bro some shit. could've bought heaps more easily but i'm using the "i'm on the dole so don't have much money lol" excuse. lollies are so fucking expensive (good riddance honestly). excited to see dog and cats again.

started going to this "support" place. you can go there to chill out or do activities. or to eat lunch. it costs money but they make it real cheap cuz mental fuckwits are poorcunts. did a woodwork thing yesterday there. thing i made was shitty but it was heaps of fun so who gives a fuck. reckon i'll start going regularly just to get away from this fucking room and this gay computer.

no job yet :/ the whole "holidays" thing is messing up everything to do with getting that up so shit gets back on track around new years. waiting, waiting, so much fun. referees are an issue. the gap is an issue. joy, joy.

god i fucking love communist music

fuck the heat

what a shitty post this is.

[Gwedin]

fuck everything my feet hurt

life is exhausting

<Gwedin> fucken
<Gwedin> walked
<Gwedin> for two hours
<Gwedin> up and down hills
<Gwedin> this fucking city dear god
<Gwedin> came home
<Gwedin> sweaty as shit
<Gwedin> showered cold
<Gwedin> then went to some fucken work agency
<Gwedin> place
<Gwedin> an
<Gwedin> d
<Gwedin> gotta email those cunts
<Gwedin> and
<Gwedin> OH
<Gwedin> I GOTTA DO THE TWO HOUR WALK AGAIN
<Gwedin> to hand in the fucking application
<Gwedin> fucking
<Gwedin> i need
<Gwedin> a car
<Gwedin> god damn
<Gwedin> or
<Gwedin> even a bike

[brainiac3397]

Get a license.

[Gwedin]

(01-10-2017 02:33 PM)brainiac3397 Wrote:  Get a license.

In my current state this is very difficult as I have no car or teacher or contact willing to let me use their car/be my teacher.

buuuuuuuuut I'll hopefully be starting a course soon that'll allow me to get one. And a forklift licence to boot! Hasn't been confirmed whether or not I'll get on the course but I'm hoping for the best there.

like the new siggy btw

[Username]

Bike.

[Gwedin]

Job interview at a factory tomorrow, first one since i left the ward. I'm way more excited than I should be. There's a few vacancies I believe so that ought to up me chances. Reckon there'll be a lot of peeps applying. fehk

i'm still excited hoyl fduasihfsdfgdsa

[Gwedin]

going out on a fishing boat for two days starting tonight. gonna see how i like the job.

le manly work or smthn

[Subb]

Yaaaaay

[brainiac3397]

(01-25-2017 11:54 AM)Gwedin Wrote:  going out on a fishing boat for two days starting tonight. gonna see how i like the job.

le manly work or smthn

U gonna stink like a fish

[Gwedin]

despise fish
despise fishing
despise boats
despise myself
despise brainiac more than any of the above

[Gwedin]

fucking milk thief i swear to GOD i will butcher you if i catch you

[Gwedin]

that feelerino when after years of depression, anxiety & general faggotry your life gets turned around somehow and you go on to secure a fulltime job :|

tbf it's just a shitty min wage one at a meat factory but it's fucking SOMETHING.

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[Gwedin]

shouldn't have drunk all that banana milk

[Username]

congrats mane, you got your shit together.

[Gwedin]

(02-02-2017 04:07 AM)Username Wrote:  congrats mane, you got your shit together.

yeah cheers.

short term/immediate goals now i guess are:

• hold down the job
• start eating more & better (i've lost roughly 16kg since i started living here (i needed to lose weight but the rate at which im losing it is kinda alarming)). gonna be difficult cuz imma be exhausted proabbly and i just hate cooking here and i get full really easy.
• look into driving lessons
  

long term or whatever i guess is basically save up as much money as possible for moving into my own place and getting my own car and then other things *cough* :|
and of course get my restricted licence. not gonna move into my own place before i get that.

[Subb]

YAY GWEDIN HAS GOALS

[AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA]

Proud of you

[Gwedin]

fuck me my back is killing me lately (only coincidental it happened around the time of work). but ugggghhhh its so annoying. my back is gonna be FUCKED when i'm older lmao

had my first day of work yesterday and my first "proper" day today. "proper" as in i actually worked. but i only worked half the day cuz the first half was paperwork paperwork paperwork

it was ok. i was covered in fucking blood and guts and i managed to burn my arm on a hot pipe like a dumbfuck but luckily it wasn't too bad. my supervisor told me to stop working so hard. my trainee fella guy said i'm making good progress or something. i was basically ripping livers, hearts and lungs off shit most of the time. barely got to use the knife which is kinda good tbh because im still pretty shitty at sharpening the thing. oh well. the fucking sweat was the biggest issue cuz i couldn't wipe it off or scratch my face cuz guts and blood covering my gloves and health&safety regulations and shit. but oh well i'll get used to it.

the fella's there are a lot nicer than i expected ._. haven't got any shit for being so young but i have gotten a bit of shit from my knife teacher for being fucking daft. he calls me "lofty" but it's all in good fun and banter and such. w/e

[Username]

you working as a butcher or some shit?

[Geicosuave]

(02-10-2017 12:49 AM)Username Wrote:  you working as a butcher or some shit?

Nah he's probably working to help do the Blood Parade, that's in a few weeks but needs a lot of preperation

[Gwedin]

(02-10-2017 12:49 AM)Username Wrote:  you working as a butcher or some shit?

working on the slaughter line in a meat processing plant. it's a rotational thing so like every half hour or hour (still havent figured it out yet) we rotate and take somebody else's job. it's kinda inefficient but it's really good for not straining muscles.

i got a lot better today. my trainer fella reckons i should be good to go on my own in a couple of weeks. he was ranting to me about his last trainee dude and said like "at least you can fucken listen" and i just lolled cuz im a deaf daft dumbass.

but yeah nah it's good. except for that i have work tomorrow. tomorrow is saturday. and i gotta wake at like 5am. ughies

[Gwedin]

waking up at 4:30am on a fucking saturday

FUCK work fellas. if there's one good thing about school it's that it isn't this fucking crazy.

nah fuck school too. advice from an very very old wise man (me): find yerself a woman/man and just dole bludge yer entire lives. drop out of school too.

[Gwedin]

i fear now that i've made such big improvements at work im gonna struggle to keep up with them and i'll disappoint myself in the end

[Gwedin]

despse niteraidah

dopey cunt doesn't know shit

[Gwedin]

just had it pointed out to me by a vegetarian that i work in a slaughterhouse

damn i didn't even properly realise til now lmao fuck me i'm daft

[Gwedin]

I think I like this boarding house. People come and go, some of them are shit and boring, others are nice and have interesting stories to tell. I'm the kind of person to be exhausted by talking but learning about these different people is quite nice. I was talking to a former teacher before who hates the way schools are run, lol. He'd fit in here perfectly honestly. All different sorts coming through here. It's the older ones I generally enjoy talking to more

Dunno where I'm going with this, i'm tired fuck off why are you reading this shit blog