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I wasn't good enough at encouraging people to be kinder, and removing people who refuse to be kind. Encouraging people is hard, and removing people creates conflict, and I hate conflict... so that's why I wasn't better at it.

I was a very, very sensitive teen. The atmosphere of this forum as it is now, if it had existed in 1996, would probably have upset me far more than it would have helped.

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Thank you to the few people who have tried to understand my point of view so far. I really, really appreciate you guys. You are beautiful people.

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Ok, forget this shit immediately (formerly: I want to commit suicide now)
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Ok, forget this shit immediately (formerly: I want to commit suicide now)

I have not posted something for some time... but I am too god-awfully depressed to do so now.

I am so depressed, I can not even stand up from my chair to go kill myself.

My heart, it just fucking hurts so much right now. I feel horribly distressed and exhausted as I am writing this, and all that out of fucking nowhere...

I swear to god, fuck politics, fuck money, fuck school, and most of all, fuck materialism.

Always the same shit with the news: Propaganda fear-mongering fuck shit, and generally unnecessarily depressing shit that stresses my mind endlessly.

Fuck politics straight to hell, they make actual people look dumb. Because of their incompetence, we have to suffer. I have to suffer in my country because the European Union is a bunch of pussy ass bitches that only kiss the ass of America.

And most of all, fuck money. And this is the kicker for why I am in the desire to finally die as soon as I can. Just a few minutes ago I saw a tumblr post about how money can not buy happiness. And whereever I go, I see fucktons of people going like "Making a living is fucking hard" blah blah, "That won't make enough green fucking paper for you to live comfortably"

So, if already a fuckton of shithead consider making a living is fucking hard, why even bother going through that myself? If already these people think it is hard, then someone like me will especially land in the trash.

No, I quickly want to die before I grow up... but I am too tired to kill myself now... and except for the knives in my kitchen I can not find anything to kill myself...

I am so fucking awful, I can not even control myself right now. Not even listening to good music helps me now.

And to quote what I replied in that tumblr post:

"Fuck money, fuck it straight to hell.

People have to suffer because of a motherfucking object. They have to rely on a motherfucking object, which is fucking hard to do anyway. And people have to go to compulsory schooling and then become business slaves just for this fucking object.

And people are like “but this is how life works”

No, fuck you.

Fuck materialism. I want to commit suicide now."


Have a good night.
I hope for you that I am still alive in the next morning.
But if you do not hear anything of me anymore... please forget I ever existed...
(This post was last modified: 03-18-2014 09:03 AM by WhatEvenIsThis.)
03-18-2014 07:56 AM
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RE: I want to commit suicide now

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Whoa whoa whoa, step back for a second, Feri.

Suicide isn't going to solve anything. You're taking an easy way out, but it's not the good way. Look, I understand that your life is in a massive state of flux, I understand that a lot of things are disorganized in your life, but suicide is not going to solve anything. It's only going to make things worse.

Second, though it seems that the world is filled with bad news and war, it isn't all like that. Here's a link:
http://www.goodnewsnetwork.org/

Look, I don't know exactly how to help, but the thing is: suicide isn't going to help anything. I've been in positions where I wanted to commit suicide, and only that. There have been moments every since I've arrived here where I didn't feel there was anywhere to go.

One thing I suggest is, try to change your negative viewpoints on the world and try to replace them with positive ones. I understand that the world isn't all roses and cartoons, but you have to find some kind of group that gives you a positive perception of the world. These negative views on the world will only further drain you down. I know this because I had similar views on the world.

Please, don't do this. Please, don't. I care about your situation. I know that's not very meaningful, but I really do. I don't want to see you kill yourself, because I know exactly the position you're in. Hang on.

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I want to commit suicide now

Please don't do it. Judging from your past posts and the things you say you are sick of, we need more souls like yours in the world.

All I can offer is continued support. That's one of the things these forums are supposed to be for.

I know exactly what you are going through. I have experienced the depths of depression and suicidal ideation and hooray im still here. Im still here because of the support from people like you on forums like this. There is hope in the world and its something to cling to. There's a whole world of people out there who do care. Iv'e also found that staying focused on yourself and your own goals is important. I try not to get caught up in focusing on things that I cannot tackle in the moment. You do have goals and you do have hope no matter how dark it seems in the moment. I and many people have been there and continue to struggle with it but we move forward because when its over, there is no more hope. Change always happens, you can count on it. When it's over, there is no more chance for change.


also check out this organizations site. http://www.theicarusproject.net I use to work for them and they are a really good resource for information hope support and like minded people all dealing with your same issues. Also check out http://www.iccd.org its a site for the clubhouse model of mental health recovery of which i am a part. There really is a whole caring hopeful world out there beyond the problems you listed.

Please continue to talk and ask me any questions about life and struggles if you wish. Please.

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03-18-2014 08:31 AM
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RE: I want to commit suicide now

Ok, I can not sleep soundly because of my stomach cramps, but I just want to calm you down and not wait until tomorrow after fucking school, who knows? You could be thinking the worst thing right now, I want to stop that.

I almost began to cry, ok? It was just a sudden outburst on the inside, and it was so bad I had to devote a whole damn thread to it.
Just, fuck people, especially the simple-minded ones.
I immediately regret having posted this shit.
Actually in all that shitty fuss I completely forgot about this: I am currently making progress in applying for a one-year voluntary work in which I can support and socialize with disabled people. From that year, I can actually have a real job with that I can live with.

And being helpful for disabled people is infinitely better than being a fucking businessman... god, I hate that word "business", it literally makes me cringe every time I feel its presence in any way.

Oh there, it seems like I cheered myself up from my own writing. Anyway, with that I ultimately give no shit about school. (I will save that for another post)

So, just quickly responding to calm your nerves... all that was just like a fatal depression attack, which I think has already gone.

Ok... have a good night... with no knives involved (if anything, politicians need knives shoven up their anuses to their entrails)
03-18-2014 08:50 AM
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RE: I want to commit suicide now

And all my thanks goes to all of you people. You are the only ones with brains inside their skulls that is not a giant wad of shit (like politicians, and people who think Meme Center is anything close to being funny)

Heh, looks like I made myself laugh my ass off from typing "giant wad of shit".
Ok guys, really now, good night.
03-18-2014 08:55 AM
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I'm glad to hear that you've cheered up. When I first read this thread, I wasn't quite sure what to say. It seems everyone else who has responded said the things I wanted to say, but couldn't give voice to.

Yeah, politicians might be screwing up the life you might consider familiar, but in all honesty, there's more to life than money and politics. Focus on the aspects of life our society ignores, and you will find more happiness and less gloom than the materialist bull we have to sift through in the everyday.

I like to think of the potential within all of us to do good and help one another, and it helps me cheer up when I'm down, but that's just me.

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I have been thinking about suicide for a long time now, but the mere fact of killing myself scaring me is one of the major things still keeping me here.

Seven crappy hours of our lives.
03-18-2014 06:27 PM
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I read on somewhere a long time ago that it's illegal (In the US) to intervene in someone's threats for suicide on a forum or whatever unless they are a licensed psychologist. It's probably not true, but I want to humorously reference DoA and I haven't figured out how to phrase it yet.
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(04-29-2014 07:46 AM)I Must Enter a Username Wrote:  I read on somewhere a long time ago that it's illegal (In the US) to intervene in someone's threats for suicide on a forum or whatever unless they are a licensed psychologist. It's probably not true, but I want to humorously reference DoA and I haven't figured out how to phrase it yet.

You speak as though I care about what's legal, and not what's right. But, yes; I intend to one day become a licensed psychologist.

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(04-29-2014 07:48 AM)DoA Wrote:  
(04-29-2014 07:46 AM)I Must Enter a Username Wrote:  I read on somewhere a long time ago that it's illegal (In the US) to intervene in someone's threats for suicide on a forum or whatever unless they are a licensed psychologist. It's probably not true, but I want to humorously reference DoA and I haven't figured out how to phrase it yet.

You speak as though I care about what's legal, and not what's right. But, yes; I intend to one day become a licensed psychologist.

And I speak to you the obvious that I speak not (hehe).

The link to the mirror of the archive of Gramsci's works isn't technically legal as it "infringes" the copyright of the publisher (which requested the works to be removed in 2008 even against the permission of the translator.), so you can assume what I think of such laws and put it in the context of this post, so I don't understand why you would respond like that, assuming that I would even want to take the appearance of speaking as if I care to stop you over what dumb thing is the law to any extent, to a post that basically means, "Hey, I remember something someone said, I think I can take the opportunity to put DoA in a joke or whatever."

We can put aside our misunderstanding, and bask in the glory of the new thread title.
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Heh, indeed. Also, this wouldn't be the first time I've "broken the law," which makes me glad I've played a part in the preservation of human life. If only my help were more substantial even than that...I don't want to prolong suffering, but want to help heal.

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"Also, this wouldn't be the first time I've "broken the law,""

Well, this is your mightiest case of "fucking the police", and in my case it would be "fuck the bourgeoisie" (Fun fact: Bourgeoisie rhymes with police.)
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Title changed for good. Good. GoOd GOod.

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"Fuck the Police!"

Someone get the N.W.A.!

RIP GWEDIN
RIP URITIYOGI
RIP NIGHT
RIP VONUNOV
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