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I suffered a mental breakdown today
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RE: I suffered a mental breakdown today

@xcriteria Thanks for the information. I'll state again (somewhat redundantly) that I've been suspecting I have some kind of other disorder. Back in 2010 I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome. I understand that often there can be some confusion between the disorders, and bipolarism and BPD can share strong parallels, sometimes so strong that it confuses even professionals. I will still consider seeking professional help, because I feel my symptoms might worsen.

@Rusty Thanks for the support. Definitely much more than I would've gotten from school. Smile

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I suffered a mental breakdown today

I feel like I've been in this thread before...

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That's probably because of the unnecessary necroing of this thread.
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we got us a gosh darn necromancer problem on our hands
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STOP THE NECROING

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We've had a lot of fun, guys.
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Heh. The guy that necro'd this thread didn't realize that this was dated to 2014, and that I was long graduated by then, and I hadn't logged on since August 2016. Funny.

Anyway, I kind of want to summarize this thread for context. I'm kind glad it got bumped so that I could re-read what was going on, as painful as it was. Some cringeworthy bits, but otherwise, it was actually quite fascinating.

To give more context, this whole shit was basically triggered (though not started) because I started developing a crush on this girl whom I've pretty much completely forgotten about; she was basically a popular girl and I was basically bottom of the food chain at the time, so it was really fucking unlikely it would work out (the reality was far, far weirder, but that's another story for another day). However, from what I remember, this whole shit was a buildup of a bunch of bullshit that was going on since the mid-2000s, struggling with my mental health, body image, etc and being put through a lot of shit. My mental health state wasn't exactly at its finest.

As chaotic as it was, it helped me more than it hurt. At the time I wrote the original post, I was basically a chode beta nice guy who was a doormat and didn't do shit with his life. I had horrible habits, I ate like fucking shit, I basically spent my days being depressed as shit while I watched YouTube videos and listened to music. Not an easy time in my life. This wasn't the only breakdown I had, by the way. There were a few others that happened.

I have to say that surprisingly, a lot of the advice on the thread was generally useful in navigating this part of my life. Admittedly I didn't have the resources to cope with what was going on as I do now. My social anxiety wasn't just because of middle school but I realized it was because the adults around me fucked up horribly when handling my situation.

But overall, I changed completely from where I was back then. I'm not socially awkward anymore, I take care of myself, I don't feel the chronic depression that was pretty much me at the time.

Surprisingly, I didn't take too much into the art therapy strategy xcriteria provided but I'm doing it more now. I've found art therapy to be very useful with coping with my past; I've mostly drawn very positive images of the past, in some weird way of coping, or reconciliation.

Overall, fun read.

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im lazy, describe art therapy to me.

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http://forums.school-survival.net/showth...?tid=37144

basically this

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So you just draw stuff?

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Pretty much. Well, I've been reading a lot of philosophical shit lately as well so it's kinda more complex than that. Really long story.

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