Merry New Pancake!

[SoulRiser]

Or year. Whichever is more delicious.

I'm hungry.

So, what do you guys want to do differently this year? I want to move to a bigger & quieter place.

[Falsalm]

I want to be more motivated to do productive things

[xcriteria]

(01-02-2014 02:04 AM)SoulRiser Wrote:  So, what do you guys want to do differently this year?

This year...

Actually find a way to earn money helping people learn outside of the factory model.

How to do it is the challenging part.

(01-02-2014 02:04 AM)SoulRiser Wrote:  I want to move to a bigger & quieter place.

Rent a castle or mansion and pay for it by opening an unschool in it.

[Ky]

Why do anything different? I survived last year, so all I have to do is employ the same techniques this year!

[Falsalm]

My goals for 2014 is to accomplish goals of 2013 which I should've done in 2012 because I promised them in 2011 and planned in 2010

[xcriteria]

(01-02-2014 03:44 AM)DoA Wrote:  Why do anything different? I survived last year, so all I have to do is employ the same techniques this year!

[Ky]

Calvin is the best newspaper comic character ever. He's even got my personality type.

[brainiac3397]

Something. Havent decided on too much. Ill probably put more effort into learning programming and if you saw the 2014 thread I posted, probably attend certain social events for cetain purposes(FOR SCIENCE!...and me).

I did apply to the thielf fellowship but thats sort of a far-fetch seeing that I have nothing on hand tand havent really done anything for my project idea. Still...if I make that than Ill have a plan already prepared.

[SoulRiser]

(01-02-2014 04:41 AM)Ariogaisus Wrote:  I wish I could like myself and not feel as useless.

What don't you like about yourself currently?

[James Comey]

I'm planning on getting a job and saving up money. I don't want to be with my family forever. Plus, I've set up bags in my room so when I throw away cans and bottles I am basically making money for myself.

I plan on this summer on losing weight and trying to limit my computer usage, and probably eat healthier (easier said than done). I'll also try to establish a sleep schedule, because I really do need one. I need to start sleeping early and waking up early.

[Alistoriv]

I'm hungry too, I haven't eaten since last year

[Ky]

(01-02-2014 08:11 AM)Ariogaisus Wrote:  

(01-02-2014 04:45 AM)SoulRiser Wrote:  

(01-02-2014 04:41 AM)Ariogaisus Wrote:  I wish I could like myself and not feel as useless.

What don't you like about yourself currently? :hug:

That I will never achieve greatness nor will I ever amount to anything. I'm constantly trying to find something that I will be the best in but without any success. I always lose motivation prematutely and say: "I don't have the talent to do it."
I have imagined so many ideas for different areas but I have no skills to realize them. I have ideas for games and how they are played. I imagine up this setting, how it's played, what game mechanics it would have and how I would make the game as enjoyable and engaging as possible for the person playing. Therefore I picked up programming because I wished to realize that idea. My brother took an interest to what I was doing and told me to make a simple program that multiplies two with itself for x amount of times. I had everything on my screen, I only had to change 3 values. Then I realized I am just one dumb-as-bricks boy whose feeble brain can't absorb mathematics or any area related to science.
Recently I picked up art but I am going to drop it soon anyway, like I always do when I consider something to be too creative for me.

I also have some stupid emotional problems which seem to occur when I can't do something properly, my parents or teachers scold me or yell at me, or when I think I'm better at something than I actually am and I get stomped by a person that is more skilled.
Take first grade, we're multiplying with zeroes and I think it must be the same as multiplying with ones. I happily do my excercises thinking I'm finally good at math and give in my work to the teacher. She tells me I'm wrong, that I have to erase all of my answers and put zeroes in everything. While the teacher is telling me this, tears are falling down my face. She then asks, why am I crying.
Still going back into first grade, a dickish third grader at the time takes my bag and puts it in a trashcan which had water in it. My schoolbag was half soaked. I then sort of "beat him up" because when I didn't like someone in school, I kicked them. Then we were both sent into the teachers room where I get lectured about why I was wrong and in the end they were kind enough to throw a sentence in about how the third grader was kind of wrong. I don't know, maybe I just remember it from a heavily biased viewpoint.

Truth is, I didn't know what was wrong with me, still don't, probably never will and I've made my peace with that. But knowing what triggers it is better than not knowing anything about this "condition" at all right? I just try to prevent it as much as possible by crying in my bed before school nights. Sometimes I sob so much that I don't feel any sad emotions for quite some time. I hope that's a good thing. At times, my sudden, out-of-the-blue emotional displays turn into anger. I rage when my maths teacher tells me to get out of the classroom and "calm down for a bit." Nowadays, when I'm having difficulties with something in school, I get a lump in my throat and my eyes well up but they don't progress to anything greater.
When I was in 7th grade, I started masturbating because I read studies saying it will relieve stress and I thought it would be useful but I got addicted to it. I didn't really care about homework, people making fun of me nor my increasing weight gain. After discovering the negative effects masturbation can have on you, I took up NoFap. School ended and I had a lot of time during the summer. I lost weight and matured a bit but I wonder why I did that. Because of a friend who made a lot of deprecating jokes about me, I can't eat when I'm in a public place, and most of all I still don't like myself. I still have gynecomastia and all my other problems so, why did I even bother?

Is it okay to imagine yourself being miserable most of the time? Thinking that I'll be a sad drunkard for the rest of your life or imagining that I have the girl of my dreams who dies from acute leukemia or cancer.

I'm just a huge clusterfuck.

TL;DR: I hate myself because I have no talents and I'm too damn emotional.

PS: I hate that the most I can contribute here is by talking about myself.

PS(again?): God, even my problems are really mediocre and useless.

This looks like a job for...DoA-Man!

First of all, your problems are not useless. No problem is. Here's hoping that I can help solve your problem.

You will be successful, surely, as long as you can self-actualize. To do that you must prioritize your needs, which means you need to understand who you are, what you can do, and what your limits are.

So find yourself. Take inventory of your strengths, note your weaknesses, see how you can turn your weaknesses into strengths. Take a personality test, or two, or seventeen, until you notice a pattern. Then exploit it.

Find what you most want to be talented at. Then, prevent yourself from saying "I can't", and say "I will". Then practice. Be the best by being on the road to the best. Develop your skill until you possess it.

School has humiliated you and made you feel stupid. This is why you have not yet thought of yourself as talented. Do you want revenge, or justice? Living well is the best revenge; you must only prove that you are self-capable, and I believe that you can do it.

Your emotions might betray you, but this is only because you do not understand them. The ability to feel is remarkable in this world of indifferent, apathetic sheep (no offense to people who take offense), and it is what can make you strong. Use your emotions to your advantage, and learn as much as you can about them.

Your surroundings, your family, your peers might have put you down. But in the end, it's up to you to decide how happy you are, and what you can do. You have but to accept that power as your own and do great things with it.

What I said might not help right this minute. But it's just something to think about; learn about yourself, find your strengths, and build your strengths.

[SoulRiser]

@Ariogaisus

So what if you're not good at the things other people will recognize? You're the best person on earth at being you. Nobody can be better at that. So, you just need to figure out what being you actually means, in a positive way. This will probably take some time, possibly years, so don't beat yourself up for not having found it yet. I think a lot of people never find it. Just keep trying different stuff - without expecting to be good or bad at it. Just do it for the experience.

[Falsalm]

(01-02-2014 10:34 AM)SoulRiser Wrote:  @Ariogaisus

So what if you're not good at the things other people will recognize? You're the best person on earth at being you. Nobody can be better at that. So, you just need to figure out what being you actually means, in a positive way. This will probably take some time, possibly years, so don't beat yourself up for not having found it yet. I think a lot of people never find it. Just keep trying different stuff - without expecting to be good or bad at it. Just do it for the experience.

Amen

[Gwedin]

Well. I hope to make at least 50 dollars (yeah it's not much, but still) by the end of the year by selling 3D models for the Unity game engine (maybe others... hm). Couldn't do this last year as my PC sucked+I didn't have Windows installed and didn't feel like installing it.

[brainiac3397]

I got my paycheck from my accounting job. 177 after taxes. Still...this wekk I pretty much got paid for doing nothing. 9 hours of $8 an hour and all 9 hours spent browsing the web looking busy.

Course next week they'll be officially teaching me(and Ill be getting an email account, so Im actually going to have work to handle). Nice thing about it is how this job can be done at home(a number of working accountants work from home and only come in for either their paycheck or to pick something up).

Just a month till I can get my drivers license. Thatd really help. Id also like to get a car this year but first I need to see if Ill be leaving the state this year(transfer or maybe through sheer luck, San Fransico for the Thiel Fellowship. Actually it wouldnt really matter because in both instances Id like to drive to my destination. Take a nice road trip...)