(02-13-2015 01:04 AM)JenniMiller Wrote: I'm socially inept. I have trouble maintaining relationships. I waste so much time obsessing over stupid bullshit. I dont know how to deal with my various emotional states. I'll be damned if it isn't a disease and I'll be damned if I don't want a fucking cure. I hate the way I am. I absolutely HATE it. I would give anything to be a neurotypical. Anything. Stop acting like its a fantastic thing and like its something to be "proud of". Its really not. Stop romanticizing a disease. Okay? Okay.
May I have a word with JenniMiller?
First, Jenni, as Sociopath pointed out, there's no sure guarantee that you have autism. Were you ever diagnosed? Did you ever see a therapist/psychiatrist? What were their evaluations and recommendations to your parents? Were you/are you in special education?
Second, autism isn't a disease. A disease is something that can be caught, and spread. Autism, Asperger syndrome, etc genetic features, like eye color, etc. There have been many, many
attempts to link the supposed "epidemic of autism" with specific trends (i.e. pollution, vaccine, gluten), but these are all very flimsy, if not false, because autism and other similar disorders/whatever have been only known in detail since the early 20th century, and that's partly due to the fact that the lifestyle we have today has only existed since the mid to late 19th century, hence the discovery. Before, it was impossible to know if anyone had autism, especially given that social norms and ways of life were completely different in previous time periods, so there may have been no distinguishable way of telling a so-called "autistic" from an "NT", in say, the Middle Ages or the Renaissance. I have no idea about any "documentations" of autism during this time, but it's probably flimsy since they'd be very vague and over-lap with many other disorders.
Third, no one is "romanticizing" autism. In fact, that would be absolute news if it were. Autism and related genetic features (because fuck it) have actually been portrayed in an absolute negative life since there has been more awareness ("retard", and "autistic" are insults, for example), especially due to organizations such as Autism Speaks. I practically face discrimination every day for autism, and every official diagnosis classifies it as a "disorder" that must be "immediately be treated". I was forced through years of ABA that was ineffective, and late last year a speech teacher attempted to show a presentation in my class of how autistic brains work, but I'm almost certain it would've been in a negative light. The so-called "romanticism" is actually rebellion by real autistic people who feel the need to fight against the misconceptions that humanity has today about their "disabilities"; in essence, it's a counter-culture. It's at least parallel to say, the homosexual rights movement that began in the 60s and has had a tremendous amount of success. There are autistic people who lead very happy lives, and wouldn't want to be cured. I'm one of them.
Fourth, it's ridiculous to blame autism for all your problems. Jenni, you need to re-evaluate your life and look at the options you have. Blaming one thing on everything won't help you, because not only will it not even get to the root causes, but it gives you a sense of defeatism. If you were made neurotypical, it's sort of like using acne products to cover up your face. You've found a treatment, great, but it's only really going to mask the issues that actually lurk. I'd guarantee you'd still have plenty of issues if you were an NT (if you are/aren't).
What I can recommend is that you start trying to improve your life. Visit the School Survival IRC, for example. Check out the forum (wrong planet) on my sig. It's a great place for autistic people to go onto, because it's so friendly for autistic people. I've been dealing with plenty of issues in my life and a lot of them still continue, but I've done a lot of things to make my life better (such as exercise, better eating, etc). I know that if I were neurotypical, things really wouldn't be a whole lot different.
Hope I've helped and brought a degree of explanation.
(02-13-2015 01:20 AM)Weswammy Wrote: Maybe you have other problems external to your autism. I'm pretty sure not everyone with autism has these problems so severely. And, seeing as a diagnosis makes them a special snowflake and gives them a tribe to be part of, I can imagine they'd be proud of it as most humans are proud of their tribal affiliations.
Wes, you'd be right. Not all autistic people have the same problems. Simple as that. As I explained before, there are probably a lot of external factors to Jenni's issues.
I'm not going into the pride/tribe comment that Wes made. Not because I'm offended, but because I have very mixed opinions on his "tribe" and "pride" point that I don't need to go into again.