You know, I actually was planning on publishing this way back in October 2013. But I decided to hold back, because I was just 16 years old back then. I felt I'd be talking up my fucking ass, and really, one thing I knew back then was that I really didn't know anything at all. I had only been on here since August, and I was suffering a pretty bad depression and a stagnant state. A lot of shit has happened ever since that fateful August afternoon I joined School Survival. A lot.
There are 2-3 things that I see when people come on here for the first time, the hood itself:
1 - They're depressed as all hell, because they know they have to put up with a broken, shitty, out-of-date "education" system every day of their lives, and it's even worse in the summer, because they know that their release program is about to come to an end, and the crap resumes, with no end in sight.
2 - They're so angry that they have to be in this system. They want to rebel. They want to destroy it. This can range from drawing dick jokes in the textbooks to actually seriously considering bringing a weapon to school, because when your rights are never given until you reach that magical age of 18, it wears on your goddamn mind.
3 - Both.
I'm not sure whether this'll be some weird motivational post that doesn't have a long term effect. I can't really say your life will get better immediately, because I have no idea of your circumstances, and I can't judge. What I do know though, for sure, is that you're going through the struggle. We all are here, whether we're forced into a shitty-ass low-funded school (like I was), or one of those rich-as-shit fancy school districts with separate testing facilities. We've all faced terror and trauma from the schooling system. That's what I know, because why else are you here on School Survival?
What I can do, while you still walk the valley of boredom on a daily basis, is tell you the facts. It's been over 2 years since I first joined School Survival. A lot has fucking changed. A lot. What I've learned is...
-You're going to change. This is a fact of life. Your opinions on life, politics, the world, etc are all going to change within a 2 year period. You're going to see events that make you see the world in an entire new light. This is guaranteed.
-You can't expect change to come towards you. You have to make change happen. For example, back in January 2014, I was lost, depressed, and I was coming into a realization I liked some popular-ass girl. What did I do? I fucking tried, damn it, and to my credit, I actually succeeded to an extent. I mean, the whole experience was one hell of a ride, but I learned a LOT of things from January-June 2014. Was it worth it? Hell yes. I know that never could've happened if I didn't try. You're going to hear it all the time, and it's true. I remember I felt so fucking empty from the summer of 2012 all the way until very late 2013, because I just let everything pass me by. Actually, I even embraced it, before it all crumbled.
-Fear is often the biggest obstacle we have to get through. I've learned that this sort of relates to my above point. We're scared to try new things, we're scared to take on new risks. You know what School Survival is about? Taking risks. You're taking a risk right now reading a thread on a site that is all against factory model education. However, the risks I'm talking about are the real ones - no, not the stupid ones like getting drunk and high - I'm talking about genuine risks that can turn into real life fucking experiences. Again, I could've just caved in, and accepted that I could never get a girl to like me. But no. I had fucking balls. One thing that I remember is that sometimes, you have to strike out, badly. It's a necessary evil. We learn from our mistakes and our misfires, and what do we do? We improve on them. How the hell are you going to get to the next level if you don't even go to uncharted waters? You can't.
-New ideas and experiences are so, so liberating. Trust me. Once you get yourself immersed into a new phase of life, it's just going to feel so goddamn amazing. It's like going into a shower and just washing yourself clean, and then getting out, and just saying "aaahhhh". That's how beautiful change can be.
-It's all gonna come to an end one day. You're not gonna be stuck in school forever. You're going to be a free person one day. One day, think about it - you'll have your own car, place, food, job, interests, perhaps partner, friends, plans, etc. You're going to have ALL OF THAT. I know it's fucking hard to wait until graduation (unless you convince your parents school is fucking evil), but trust me, your day will come. Just hold on, please. Play some cheesy inspirational music or something. I'll link Eminem's "Lose Yourself" at the end of the thread.
I think I'm done speaking. I hope this thread has helped somebody. I've been through 2 years of school knowing that it was all bullshit - and I've been through many more years shedding tears. I'm a soldier, and trust me when I say I've seen everything life can throw at you. Carry on, soldier. Once you realize it, you are the one that controls your destiny (well, individually, at least).
Yeah - I can't lie when I say I get high myself. My point is that there's a difference between so called "risky" behavior, and actually taking risks that can get you places one way or another. People forget that "risk" isn't 100% negative, and can actually be the opposite.
My friend likes to get high. He liked it so much, he become something of a drug dealer(very short time since he got threatened by some gang so he stopped), meets with dealers like 3 times a day to replenish his inventory(since he smokes so much), and has basically become psychologically addicted to weed.
Failed out of the college he got into. Now he's going to community college.
A smart person will just not bother with that shit.