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Attack of the Sandman?
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Attack of the Sandman?

It's something that happens to me at odd times really. I can stay awake comfortably for more than 24 hours, without a hint of sleep(till I'm unoccupied). Yet it also seems like no matter how well, or how long, I've slept, I will feel an uncontrollable urge to nap during lectures or speeches that just don't stimulate.

Some lectures, I feel aware and attentive, but in others, I just feel my eyelids droop, my mind fog. I feel detached slow by slow, as my head ever so slowly nudges down. I feel my body heat grow warmer, I hear the droning voice of the speaker, I feel my hand scribbling on paper, yet I am not there. Sometimes it's even with my eyes wide open, sometimes it's only for a split second. Yet the disorientation is chaotic. It's as if I'm dragged straight out of the space-time continuum then dropped back in.

I checked some sleep disorders out, but none of them match. Narcolepsy seemed to be close, but my problem is unpredictable most of the time(I'm only sure that a lecture I'm not interested in will soon leave me in that situation, or an unstimulating class room).

I always wonder what it may be. I hope it's mental. It's difficult to explain to people that my bouts of napping aren't voluntary, aren't by choice, and aren't because I was up all night or taking drugs.

Yet the feeling is almost impossible to recreate. I can not consciously cause it, nor can I affect factors to make it occur. The sensation is amazingly frightening, which I enjoy. The disorientation, the detachment from time and space, the confusion all forms a strange feeling. When one feels detached from time, you begin to feel things you could never feel.

It's as if the mind has...become freed. Dimensions blur and a new world reveals itself.

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(06-14-2013 08:02 AM)Potato Wrote:  watch the fuq out, we've got an "intellectual" over here.

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Attack of the Sandman?

Get more sleep, then.

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09-09-2013 12:44 AM
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