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Where I'm at

So I've been changing for some time. Things that are different now:

1) I have stopped doing all illegal drugs, including alcohol and DXM (Cough Syrup). I still use drugs like caffeine, however.

2) I am attempting to improve myself by learning things and having an objective and understanding view of the world.

3) I am also attempting to learn new skills that will be useful (music theory, programming, etc.)

4) I am trying to improve my working memory and possibly cognition by doing dual n-back training. Here's a link: http://brainworkshop.sourceforge.net/

5) I'm attempting to act politely and nicely in social situations... this helps me have some credibility and interesting conversations with people that I'm looking for.

6) I'm trying to reduce time spent on the internet doing not-so worthwhile things.

7) I've accepted school, because I'm actually interested in what I have to learn there.

8) I'm using an application called Mnemosyne to learn things. Here's a link: http://www.mnemosyne-proj.org/

So there you go. I'm trying to change my life for the better and become a better person. I may still post here occasionally. I wish you all the best.

Regards,
Zagix

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An interesting website/blog is http://www.gwern.net/
The person who owns this website is very interested in improving his cognitive skills and is a programmer.
10-22-2012 07:57 AM
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Zagix, it would be no stretch of reason to suggest that I am, at present, the last person here who actually presents a modicum of civility towards you. You simply cannot announce to everyone that you have changed and expect all past deeds to have gone and be forgotten; these things take time. Show everyone how much you've changed for the better and gradually they will come to accept you. It will take time, and is not instantaneous, most still see you as a troll. This is no guarantee; there are going to be some people here who will hate you even after you've changed, there is no use attempting to prove yourself to them and convince them individually. It is something you will have to accept. However, consolations at your behest that not everyone is like that, and as long as that's true, you still have something, your motivation for change, to strive for in your potential.

I'm only telling you this because if I don't, noone else will.
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10-23-2012 09:10 AM
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Yeah, what sociopath said. Look at bulgarianlion. Going from a purveyor of shit and dick jokes to a pretty cool guy.
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10-23-2012 09:26 AM
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I give it a week
10-23-2012 12:41 PM
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(10-23-2012 12:41 PM)SaintVicious Wrote:  I give it a week
10-24-2012 12:32 AM
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I give it until the next time he posts here
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10-24-2012 06:13 AM
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