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TehCheezGangsta · 04-11-2012 01:30 PM

I am fed up, so you know what I'll do? I'll RANT about it!

I guess I'll have to start with the beginning of freshman year, because that's where it began. I had to apply to a school that I didn't want to go to in the first place. My parents made me apply, and despite me trying to fuck up the interview, I somehow got accepted.

The first week was okay, but it got progressively worse. I hated every single class, the people were all annoying "by the book" people, and teachers would carelessly pile assignment after assignment on top of you. This gradually wore me down and it got to the point where I shut down, hardly speaking or doing work.

After a few monts of this, the school psychologist (yes, we have our own psychologist) started giving me all these tests because they thought something was "wrong" with me. They said that I was smart but had motivational issues, in a way that made it sound like it was completely my fault. It's kind of hard to have motivation to do things if you don't want to do them, or don't even have the energy for them. I had hardly any energy, I'm not sure how I even managed to show up every day. One time I amost passed out and they still made me work because I'm "smart and capable of doing it, I'm just trying to get out of class." Yeah, that's totally what I was doing...

This went on for the rest of the year, and I got released from that prison for summer. After a few weeks of relaxing, I was finally happy and had energy. I did stuff and was constantly going places and having fun. But all of that was destroyed by school in the fall. I quickly went back to my lethargic state, to the point where I felt like I was sleepwalking through each day.

In the second quarter, I decided to play along with their bullshit. I did my work. I was a lot more talkative. I participated in class a lot. The only real difference it made was changed my grades, I noticed. I had no more energy than before, I was not any happier, and I did not enjoy school any more. I was congratulated on my "improvement," when pretty much all I changed was my personality.

In quarter 3 I decided, "screw this, I'm no happier this way, so it doesn't matter." I did almost no homework and barely passed. Everyone always harassed me about my grades, never asked how I was or let me have a civil conversation. I tried talking to my "friends" I made during quarter 2 about it, but they keep giving me stupid reasons as to why this stupid prison is important. They just don't understand. I wish I was more like them. I want to run away, or lie in bed and refuse to get up, anything but listening to people drone on and on about how I should be doing my school work...

Stadium · 04-11-2012 01:32 PM

I refuse to read any of this until you split it into paragraphs.

TehCheezGangsta · 04-11-2012 01:52 PM

(04-11-2012 01:32 PM)Stadium Wrote: I refuse to read any of this until you split it into paragraphs.

Heh, my bad. I was so annoyed when I wrote it that it all became a wall of text. When I read that I thought, "Paragraphs, what are these paragraphs you speak of?" XD

batboy138 · 04-12-2012 01:53 AM

I didn't read it!

fish20 · 04-12-2012 04:20 AM

(04-12-2012 01:53 AM)batboy138 Wrote: I didn't read it!

Congratulations! You want a cookie?

UltraRobot · 04-12-2012 10:39 AM

(04-12-2012 04:20 AM)Fish20 Wrote:
(04-12-2012 01:53 AM)batboy138 Wrote: I didn't read it!

Congratulations! You want a cookie?

Lolthis.

fish20 · 04-12-2012 10:58 AM

I read it. This is how I felt when I went to normal school. The only thing I could do is sleep because it made me so bored. It is more boring than doing nothing. At least if they locked me in an empty room, I could think what I wanted to think, and not have my mind concentrated on their stupid questions. School made me lazier then I was before. I never wanted to do any work, I can't even do the work in online school. It is so pointless. This is not education. It's reeducation.

flann · 04-12-2012 03:10 PM

Kinda like me. I tried talking, but everyone makes fun of the accent I have. (this accent decided to start with me, because it's not in my dad or mother). So I keep silent. And listening only makes it worse. I can hear the stupidity of these people. I live in a place where obama is the antichrist and caused the US Debt in 1 day (george bush? pssh, he was good according to them).

But everything feels like I'm dragging myself to mind reduction. I feel slower and dumber as the time goes on.

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