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You can laugh all you want at my Valentine lament
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You can laugh all you want at my Valentine lament

Yeah, LSS; every year like clockwork I write one around this time when loneliness hits, or whenever that may be. Just thought I'd post mine of this year here & who knows, maybe(probably) keep adding current ones for all the years to come that fly past. .......Plus I probably did a lousy job proofing it/composing it with the right pattern and I'm too afraid for my self esteem to go to an actual poetry forum and face a bunch of conceited little dogmatists. I really do like poems and all, though.
Sigh. Forever alone and with no life whatsoever. Oh yeah, Valentine's rocks!

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My darling let me go to bed.
I've worked myself up to a fever.
My darling don't dream in my head.
It's just I've been walking by so many mirrors.

My love do you remember when
the darkness claimed our night together
and the storm, just like an oil lamp,
hit the switch, made starlight brighter.
I'm sweating my darling,
I can't help this crying.
I've been running from midnight,
these old memory thoughts.
They stick in my mind
Night just makes them spin harder
And they stay in my brain just like these mad ticking clocks.
And these calendars spin and they fall to the floor,
pirouetting with temporariness I abhor.
Once the hand of a kitchen clock stops it's no more...
So tell me, then, what was it for?
My darling, the one I adore?
The one we don't speak of much anymore...

I've got so much here in my brain,
still I must keep on moving.
The life you live in spite of me,
The words you spoke like poetry,
Your own body's cartography...
They know not of these years.
As you shave your head and dye those roots
kill who you were for some lousy proof
that you're just a ghost
things just fly right through
as you move right on
You know not what you do.

Tonight I tear this hair from brittle roots
polishing my eyes for you
And that girl she sleeps beneath your roof
Lover, whatever... you wanna do.
I just hope you feel our first love's lies
as you see a soul that's long since died;
Hangs like a star there bending light
and you watch below from that very first night.

And I admit to myself how I'm glad you're alright
It's just you moved yourself so far away in
measurements I can't comprehend,
universally inadequate.
So I'll finish my own confessions;
how I am careless
Oh! so childish.
My love for you, it's selfishness
And this envy, oh! So infinite.


But the clock keeps waving its hands
rejecting all moments past.
I know tomorrow's a guess,
nothing more, even less,
three years shilled off in listlessness,
as I fight my soul for meaningfulness.
Guess I'll just keep moving on,
I mean you can't stay mad at a setting sun...
With my broken heart, oh my darling one

O hi shiublainn leat, o hi
I'd keep followin' you but it's five to three
02-14-2012 06:10 PM
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RE: You can laugh all you want at my Valentine lament

First thread in a while that ive actually read.

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RE: You can laugh all you want at my Valentine lament

Why are you posting everywhere that I've posted? o.o Anyway, it's probably a good thing someone else is online. I've decided to stay up all night to extend my three day weekend. I need SOMEONE to talk to before I about die. Save me, will you?
02-14-2012 08:54 PM
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I post on last posts and you got the last posts. Ive gotta go to school in a little bit so I wont be online much longer.

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Damn. Alright, have a swell day and all. I'll just get back, then, to strangling myself and/or waiting for morningtime, whichever comes first.
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