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Set Sail for Boring Tales: Some Whines, Some Reflections
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Set Sail for Boring Tales: Some Whines, Some Reflections

Here we go, kids. Settle down now, for Papa Maelstrom is gonna tell you how his mundane existence transpires. Let's hope that this doesn't get derailed, as it usually does.

If you're reading this, I killed myself.
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Well, I am so interested in this blog!!!!
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This is groovy

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but is it sexy? Wink

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Only time will tell

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agreed

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As I mentioned a few days back, I got into a fight with the cretin that bullied me for years. Here's what transpired.

We met in a local park, with around seventeen kids coming to watch the fisticuffs go down. My bully taunted me for a few minutes, calling me
unintelligent names such as faggot, Nazi, cockmuncher, and faggot many more times. I told him how he had sown the seeds to his own destruction, and how his pathetic belittling of others was going to end, whether he wanted to or not. He's a boasting Neanderthal, so why can't I give him a taste of his own medicine?

After this verbose, we fought. He foolishly made the first move, which allowed me to dodge his haymakers, and uppercut him in the jaw. He got up quickly, and pushed me down a ditch, which was a mistake on my part. As he jumped onto me, I used momentum to kick him off, sending him into a frozen pond. The ice was thin, and the bastard started to show the onsets of hypothermia in only a few minutes (due to the wind chill of -22 F). The rest is a blur, except that I can remember getting my nose broken by hitting a metal pole.

As the miscreant was smugly boasting to his friends, adrenaline kicked in. I ran up to him, punched him in the solar plexus, and pummeled him. What little hits he gave me back I couldn't feel, and it was glorious. I left him alone, and told his friends and him that if they ever tried to fuck with me again, then they'd be lying in a puddle of their own blood. While I'm too weak and inexperienced to actually do something of that magnitude, the bluff made them run like hell. I think I got my message across.

If you're reading this, I killed myself.
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Fucking awesome I wish I would so shit like that!

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(01-25-2012 01:57 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  As I mentioned a few days back, I got into a fight with the cretin that bullied me for years. Here's what transpired.

We met in a local park, with around seventeen kids coming to watch the fisticuffs go down. My bully taunted me for a few minutes, calling me
unintelligent names such as faggot, Nazi, cockmuncher, and faggot many more times. I told him how he had sown the seeds to his own destruction, and how his pathetic belittling of others was going to end, whether he wanted to or not. He's a boasting Neanderthal, so why can't I give him a taste of his own medicine?

After this verbose, we fought. He foolishly made the first move, which allowed me to dodge his haymakers, and uppercut him in the jaw. He got up quickly, and pushed me down a ditch, which was a mistake on my part. As he jumped onto me, I used momentum to kick him off, sending him into a frozen pond. The ice was thin, and the bastard started to show the onsets of hypothermia in only a few minutes (due to the wind chill of -22 F). The rest is a blur, except that I can remember getting my nose broken by hitting a metal pole.

As the miscreant was smugly boasting to his friends, adrenaline kicked in. I ran up to him, punched him in the solar plexus, and pummeled him. What little hits he gave me back I couldn't feel, and it was glorious. I left him alone, and told his friends and him that if they ever tried to fuck with me again, then they'd be lying in a puddle of their own blood. While I'm too weak and inexperienced to actually do something of that magnitude, the bluff made them run like hell. I think I got my message across.
Fucking awesome. Good job Biggrin

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The look on his face when I stared at him in the hallway was priceless. I won't start being a dick to him though, because doing that would just make me the same monster that he is. It seems that what I did has gained me some respect amongst my school, as no new rumour s about me being gay or sociopathic have arises recently. Thanks for the support.

If you're reading this, I killed myself.
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Seriously, you have balls of steel and a very good experience in fighting. Wow, I wish I was you. Good job.
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Day #2

Had my math examination today, and I probably failed it, seeing as how I spent a total amount of 15 minutes studying for it xD. Oh well, I can always take an online course if I failed it. What a fucking waste of a semester. I lost my friends through their escapades in herd mentality and partying, and know I'm moaning about it for no reason whatsoever.

Have you ever visited the big cat exhibit at a zoo or menagerie, and seen how the tigers relentlessly pace back and forth? That's how I've felt, ever since the isolation started. When the only company you have is the evil part of your conscience, you start to go a little looney.

What was once a vibrant relationship with my parents has turned into a rotting husk. They don't really know me, and the only thing they can think to talk about is school! Never, want to go fishing, son? or " I love you"?

Yet again, I probably cause most of these problems by my own stupidity and arrogance. I just don't know what to do anymore. Sorry for the toxic post, I'll try to keep the emofest at a standstill for now. Good night.

If you're reading this, I killed myself.
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Day #3

Alot happened, thanks to the mood swings and anxiety returning. We had a two hour examination for American History from 6-8 A.M. this morning. Being in the half-asleep state I was in, I hit a deer when driving today. The exam was easy, and then I went to my friends' house. We hotboxed the basement, and watched Mary Kate and Ashley Save Christmas. I came home, got yelled at by my dad, and threw up. Don't expect much more changes in the material of the updates- my life is as dry as the Kalahari Desert.G'night.

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You lucky bitch I want to drive places and hit deer and shit

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Oh yeah, one more pointless update: I'm losing most of the motivation I have left in me. Introducing the new night fartist, Maelstrom!

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Motivation is not necessary.

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You have Diablo II or Minecraft? Deus Ex?

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Minecraft Smile

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Time for another post, seeing as how we had a slow day on here. I finally kissed a girl today, and I've got to tell you, after years of loneliness, it feels great. Just to know that you have someone who accepts you for not only the positives, but also the negatives, is amazing.

Me and Danielle hotboxed my basement, played Skyrim, and watched the stars and the
galaxy arise from their daytime slumber. Beats
spending dinner with my uptight parents and
racist grandmother, that's for sure.


I also learned how to play Echoes by Pink Floyd on my bass today.

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Over the past few days, I've recruited a new member for SS, my girlfriend, Danielle. Me and her have really gotten to know each other over the past five months, and are so alike that it's insane.

We've talked it over, and it's been decided that we're going to run away together, to San Francisco. She's the only person who's ever given me a chance, and I'm infatuated with her, as you can probably tell.

The next semester starts tomorrow, but I don't care. Come May, and the dismal, grotesque streets of Saint Catharines will be long gone from our eyes. I probably failed one of my courses, and will grow insane of the ramblings of my drone-like peers, but there is an escape, finally.

Man, does that sound pretentious, or what xD?

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(01-27-2012 10:23 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Minecraft Smile

Hell, I could host a minecraft server tomorrow. Wanna play?

Echoes is awesome... also, good luck with San Francisco. Your girlfriend seems pretty cool, lol, to say the least.

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Sure, what's the IP?

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I guess we could play now
and no I'm not telling you all that openly, check your PMs in a sec

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Well, that's it. I've stopped seeing reason, I am having a breakdown. Fuck this, fuck everything. I'm done. Goodbye, and keep resisting.

So, before the bastard troll who loves the lower case comes in, does anyone have any questions? Of course you don't, seeing as how I'm a cynical, whiny bore! Arrrrghhh.

If you're reading this, I killed myself.
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The bridge is up ahead. It won't be long until the moment comes.

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(02-02-2012 08:59 AM)Maelstrom Wrote:  The bridge is up ahead. It won't be long until the moment comes.

Ah shit. AH SHIT.

If you gonna kill yourself, REALLY kill yourself, please, just do it. DON'T BE FAGIX.

Seriously, just try to find a hobby you like. And what about the girl you kissed? Spend time with her.

But, if you keep posting about killing yourself, and you don't do it, I just gonna say "fuck off".
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Danielle dumped me for my ex-friend, I'm failing everything in school, and I realized earlier on that no matter how hard I try in life, I'll always end up fucking everything over. I'm sorry to subject you to this Luiz, and if any of the mods are watching, it's understandable if you ban me.

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what the fuck
can you please stop being so fucking irrationally and excessively self loathing?
I don't see how you're pretentious; you seem like exactly the opposite...

Danielle seems like a bitch now.

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The self loathing is a vestigial part of my personality that I gained from being bullied a few years back. Though the taunting ceased over three years ago, my mind has changed to the point where my mind grew a second, self-hating personality.

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Well, I'm back ONCE more, though this isn't a safe haven from criticism. On Scholastic Dementia, I started a simplistic thread, one talking about the positive and negative aspects of our society. As was to be expected, Wes arrived, and gave some well-versed rebuttals to all of my negative criticisms, which were understandable. In fear over being proved wrong, I wrote an incomprehensible reply of ALLCAPS, insulting many important old members and doing the self-loathing thing that I always do.

Since quite a few of you guys are still on this site, I want you to know that I'm truly sorry for what I did, even though that I have a long period of false pretences and broken promises. I guess.... I don't know. It's not easy for anyone when they're basic moral beliefs are rocked to the core, and swept away like dirt. This isn't to fall into the traps of self-pity. Maybe I'll go back to SD, or even stay here for a while, if you guys take me in. If not, it's perfectly understandable.

In other news, it's been nearly a year since I joined this site, with my annual date of registration occurring on the date of the winter solstice. When I first learned of the conspiracy theories in 2006, I was obsessed, believing in things ranging from the Rapture occurring, to the "reptilians" and Illuminati attacking, to Nibiru colliding with the earth, and everything turning to ashes once more. Now that I'm older, I know that such occurrences will surely not happen, but that old longing for a fresh renewal still subtly lingers. It isn't fair, wishing for everything to be wiped out so that I can live in a lawless, Fallout wasteland, brushing off all of the pain and responsibilities of my old life. Just because my life is boring doesn't justify blotting out the happiness of billions of people, and most of the things that ail me can easily be conquered with motivation, perseverance, and hard work.

Until the next sporadic posting, thanks for reading, whoever you may be.

If you're reading this, I killed myself.
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