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Oh please not again.
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Oh please not again.

No emo. Read long version which is detailed or the short version so you don't have to be all "TL;DR LOLOLOLOL!"
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I saw here there again, this woman was sitting down talking with her friend whilst I just entered the party like mine. It was our uncle, member or some high ranked mafia member hosting a party at our dads house. Our mum sneaked in and took some beanbag out of my dads house lol dunno why. And our uncle seemed to change appearances every 5 minutes. From going to a bald man with a beard to a short-curly-haired man with a tan and no facial hair. Or maybe it was just a different man :\
Anyway, I entered the room, bored. And straight away she hugged me we've met before and said "Hey." I knew I've met her before but just couldn't place it. So I replied with a delayed greeting. After talking for hours about 2deep4u shit, we head off to sleep in some sleeping bags in the second living room upstairs. And we just lie in the beds next to us, it was a glorious 10 minutes. Then my mum enters the house and tells me to come home. My little bro and sis left, which was good because I was worried where they were and this party wasn't really for their age group. Even if there were younger kids around. Mafia members walking in, drunk adults and soon-to-be a sexual orgy downstairs. So the kids were just upstairs. The uncle walks in and says "You shouldn't be doin' that. Just leave them there, they'll be fine." It wasn't an assuring they'll be fine since a small group of the young henchmen walk in to greet the boss and party.
Mum replies, "But th-"
"I'll be greatly offended if he leaves so soon. He'll be safe here I promise."
They start talking for a few minutes but while I hoped my mum let me stay so I can be with the woman, I was looking at this furry, talking seal creature with a human face and could talk broken English. I thought to myself, how is this possible. Some fucked up shit is happening here. I love this creature, but I know something is wrong. My mum said goodbye, I gave her a kiss and she left. Everything starts shaking, and it felt like I got knocked out. And once I wake up I go to rub her shoulder, but, she wasn't there. No one was there. I was alone. My mind has tricked me once again, thank you for the heart-crushing dream you prick of a mind. This girl is in nearly all my dreams. In my dreams I keep forgetting who she is but I know I've seen her somewhere. She always knows who I am which is shown by her laugh and a wink in another dream. My brain is a trickster.

Short Version:
I had a dream of a girl. We connected like the 6 and the 9. But I know I've seen her for somewhere. It was all a dream but she appears in all my dreams. Doesn't matter what dream it's in, whether she plays a soldier, a criminal, a scientist or just a random girl. She knows who I am in the dream, and knows we've met before, but in my dreams I can't remember who she is. Then I wake up all confused and a short burst of disappointment as I realize it was all a fantasy. Yet this girl appears in all my dreams.

I'm not one that's looking for relationships or anything, but this dream just has the biggest effect on me. I don't know what effect it has though but I thought it was interesting that she has appeared in nearly all my dreams.

(01-10-2012 02:15 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Efs, your nihilism is beautiful.
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You too, Efs? Waterloobe is having these kinds of dreams too.
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(01-23-2012 12:51 PM)Luizao876 Wrote:  You too, Efs? Waterloobe is having these kinds of dreams too.
Is he? I'll do a search on him.

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Strange... I had a dream about this one chick twice, but other than that, Idk. When I have dreams about girls, it always disappoints me when I wake up. I'm a hopeless romantic sometimes.

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(01-23-2012 02:10 PM)Absentinsomniac Wrote:  Strange... I had a dream about this one chick twice, but other than that, Idk. When I have dreams about girls, it always disappoints me when I wake up. I'm a hopeless romantic sometimes.
Yeah I have occasional dreams of girls. But this is like...insane.

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watch the documentary "the science of sleep" n00b

dreams are not magical or messages, its your mind playing out a scenario that is troubling you. most likely you where wondering what you would want the perfect girl to be, and your mind played out in your head hundreds of times. The one that worked, you happened to remember because of the strong emotion (dreams are rarely unintentionally remembered without any emotional weight). With that perfect woman now in your mind, you think about her often and how you would spend time with her, thus reoccurring dreams that are consistently remembered due to heavy emotional weight

you also feel like you recognize her because you cannot dream a face you have never seen before, but most unrecognizable faces are held in subconsciousness. She was probably someone you saw walk by one day and thought "damn, she is perfect". your brain would pull that out of your memory in attempts to solve the problem of who your perfect girl would be

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(01-23-2012 12:56 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-23-2012 12:51 PM)Luizao876 Wrote:  You too, Efs? Waterloobe is having these kinds of dreams too.
Is he? I'll do a search on him.

Yes but thing is, I don't think I've seen the girl from my dreams, perhaps in a film maybe but I can't think of anywhere I've seen her IRL.
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(01-24-2012 05:41 AM)Jesusaurisrex Wrote:  watch the documentary "the science of sleep" n00b

dreams are not magical or messages, its your mind playing out a scenario that is troubling you. most likely you where wondering what you would want the perfect girl to be, and your mind played out in your head hundreds of times. The one that worked, you happened to remember because of the strong emotion (dreams are rarely unintentionally remembered without any emotional weight). With that perfect woman now in your mind, you think about her often and how you would spend time with her, thus reoccurring dreams that are consistently remembered due to heavy emotional weight

you also feel like you recognize her because you cannot dream a face you have never seen before, but most unrecognizable faces are held in subconsciousness. She was probably someone you saw walk by one day and thought "damn, she is perfect". your brain would pull that out of your memory in attempts to solve the problem of who your perfect girl would be
Did I say it was magical or a message derp?
I know that dreams cannot be something you've never seen before. But could it be a blend of multiple things? For example a blend of someones facial shape, anothers eyes and anothers hair?

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That's some freaky shit right there...

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It can. If I understand correctly, dreams are the processing of what you have experienced. What is impossible in the real world is possible there. Teleportation, dieing multiple times without dying, monsters...all of that. Gravity can be defied, the pit never ends etc. etc. Therefor, if this shit is possible, why should it be impossible for your brain to process what your perfect girl should look like? It would be illogical if that wasn't possible.

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(01-25-2012 10:16 AM)aCol Wrote:  It can. If I understand correctly, dreams are the processing of what you have experienced. What is impossible in the real world is possible there. Teleportation, dieing multiple times without dying, monsters...all of that. Gravity can be defied, the pit never ends etc. etc. Therefor, if this shit is possible, why should it be impossible for your brain to process what your perfect girl should look like? It would be illogical if that wasn't possible.
That may be. I love dreams, even if they are scary. They are just so interesting. And maybe this is my "dream" girl that my brain is showing me. It sounds kind of cheesy when I say it lol She looks great, and there was no sex, but holy fuck I felt like...life was complete.

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