I'm not well.

[Land Of The NotSoFree]

I want to drop out and get my GED. Go to community college and take some classes that might grab my attention. I've been in highschool four years now and I feel my time there is done. I'm behind in credits and really don't want to stay any longer or even bother to make the credits up, because it's alot to make up. I honestly have no idea how I'm not being watched or on probation or whatever.. I don't attend alot of classes, I've been absent so many times over my four years here, Im SERIOUSLY behind in credits and nobody gives a shit.

So because I was so behind, I started to really think about highschool and if it really mattered or not. So I thought up some things I found interesting, like how almost everybody forgets 90% of the things they "learned" in highschool. I have a big problem with math class, because highschool math is the most pointless crap that nobody will ever do again unless they want to become a scientist or whatever shit I dont even know. In my opinion grade school math is all you need and it should be practiced often. Then I found this website and it was like I struck gold. I never would've thought there are others that thought of highschool almost the exact same way I did, to an even greater extent. I'm civilized, I'm disciplined and I want to leave highschool already. My parents don't understand me, and I can't even bother to explain to them what I really want because everytime I really want to tell them how I feel and what I plan on doing I.. I don't know, I just don't spill it all out as I should. The cat gets my tongue.

So today after yet another arguement and hearing the same shit my mom has been telling me for so long (I've told her certain things but I don't think she actually listens to me one bit) I get mad. She busts out the "what do you have to do? just go to school. you don't cook or clean or do anything else but that" comments and it got to me. I actually have other personal problems that Id seriously never talk to anybody about.. anyway my dad tells me "Well what do you plan on doing with your life? Just sit there on your games and phone forever?" Of course not... I just can't tell them anything and I have trouble letting out what I personally feel when I really need to..but I will eventually. They tell me that all I want to do is play games and use the computer. Thats not true at all. They leave and I just start to not think straight... I thought about breaking my Playstation 3 just to show them thats not what i want, and I could survive without it. I don't even use the computer often either.

So out of nowhere I start to cry...Im not the type to cry for things at all so Im shocked at myself..I start crying and while im at it I couldnt tell what I was really crying about. The talks they give me just piled up I guess, knowing what I really want to do and not being able to do it got to me also. What Im really concerned about is I started telling myself "Whats wrong with me?" and "Somebody help me" while crying on the damn floor. I'm a grown ass 17 year old boy. I shouldn't be doing something like that, hell im still in shock... why the hell did I do that?

I just wish I could do what I want. I feel like i'm being held prisoner. Forced to do things against my will. Because of this whole mess I've really started to hate the police and I even call america "land of the not so free". I don't want to be labeled as lazy, dumb, troubled, or anything else people think is typical for dropouts. As long as I'm in high school I won't be well. I want to learn on my own, in my own way and start working on achieving my dreams

[UnschoolShqiponjë]

Wait, do you have an underlying issue eating at you that you wish not to tell? That's what it seemed like you were saying.

Also, your mom is wrong. I go to college, work part-time, wash my clothes, clean my shit, make my own food 9for the most part. It is easy and pretty fun tbh. High school is a huge waste of time and mainly bullshit. Teaching you shit you will never use in a horrible social atmosphere.

Math can be useful in highschool. Some of algebra and some geometry. The way they teach it though is complete nonsense.

Don't worry about crying. It is a way to express frustration, anger, sadness, and yes even happiness. Crying doesn't have an age limit. Just don't cry every single day over every little thing but you obviously don't do that.

Get a GED, go to community college for two years and get about 60 credits. Keep your GPA around a 3.0 or higher. By then you might have a better idea on your life goals. Then you can transfer to a four year school relatively easily.

Maybe get a part-time job somewhere. Just for cash and shits and giggles. Also for a better resume and college app.

[Land Of The NotSoFree]

(10-25-2011 04:20 AM)UnschoolShqiponjë Wrote:  Wait, do you have an underlying issue eating at you that you wish not to tell? That's what it seemed like you were saying.

Also, your mom is wrong. I go to college, work part-time, wash my clothes, clean my shit, make my own food 9for the most part. It is easy and pretty fun tbh. High school is a huge waste of time and mainly bullshit. Teaching you shit you will never use in a horrible social atmosphere.

Math can be useful in highschool. Some of algebra and some geometry. The way they teach it though is complete nonsense.

Don't worry about crying. It is a way to express frustration, anger, sadness, and yes even happiness. Crying doesn't have an age limit. Just don't cry every single day over every little thing but you obviously don't do that.

Get a GED, go to community college for two years and get about 60 credits. Keep your GPA around a 3.0 or higher. By then you might have a better idea on your life goals. Then you can transfer to a four year school relatively easily.

Maybe get a part-time job somewhere. Just for cash and shits and giggles. Also for a better resume and college app.

Thats the plan. Though after community college I'm not so sure about going to a 4 year one, but that'll clear up later im sure.

What I really want to be is a professional wrestler, and actor. Im also into playing the piano so who knows. My mom also has this crazy idea that the first small Job I get simply for a little extra money will be what I'll be doing for the rest of my life.. and yes, an underlying issue is eating at me. Though with some extra free time I'd be able to fix this no problem. Maybe if I didn't go to jail 5 days a week I wouldn't have this certain problem. School is tiring

[SoulRiser]

Nothing wrong with crying...
It's just nature's way of releasing pent up frustration/energy/sadness/whatever.

I know what you mean about parents not listening, although mine were relatively cool most of the time, but my dad in particular would often get on my case about grades, especially if I wasn't doing well in maths or science. He even made me do extra worksheets in the holidays one time. I was not amused...

It took me a long time to figure out what to do even after I graduated. Turns out though, I was already doing it, and I just didn't realize it. I now make money from ads on my websites. Dad is jealous.
And all that maths and science shit didn't help me one bit to do this.

My point is, your parents shouldn't be expecting you to plan your entire damn life out in advance. Nobody really does that. Things change, you can't possibly know everything you want to do now already. Most people just sort of "end up" in some job/career they didn't really even choose.

Anyway. Can you actually take the GED at 17 where you live? I think the ages vary depending on what state you're in. If you really can't convince your mom of the GED idea, maybe you'd have better luck convincing her to let you finish school online? It's all the same crap work and stuff, but you can do it at pretty much your own pace I think.

Oh, also, welcome to SS

[UnschoolShqiponjë]

Well you can do wrestling/acting on the side. You will have SOOO much free time in the first few years of college compared to high school.

Tell your mom she is wrong. People get many part time jobs. I was a bank teller, retail cashier, construction worker, teacher's aid, special ed aid, substitute, an an office worker. None of which lasted the rest of my life heh. I didn't get fired but I got bored and quit.

[SoulRiser]

If you need free time to work something out, do you need to go anywhere specific, or have anything specific with you to help work it out? If you just need time to think, maybe you could tune out everything going on in class and think about it there? I mean, they can make you attend class, but they can't force you to participate.

[Land Of The NotSoFree]

I can take the GED test at 17 here in New York. & I guess I'll go for online classes if that doesn't workout. But I really wish I could just take my brain and stuff it into her head so she can completely understand you know? lol

Also

Quote:I mean, they can make you attend class, but they can't force you to participate.

Yep I already do that. I spend most of the time being grumpy, being half asleep and thinking about things. & Yes I need to have specific things to work this problem out. Fixing it isn't a problem its just my mentality about it that im worried about.

[Liquid]

Hey Blackbird

Realizing the truth about school is a downer isn't it? I had a bad depression after it happened to me, not sure why though. I guess you are going through something similar, hang in there man.