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True. All love inevitably leads to pain.
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True. Love is trust, and you can trust no one.
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New, Silent, and Observer of Beings
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New, Silent, and Observer of Beings

Greetings.

My name is as it was in the column to the right of the subject name. I'm not sure if there's much for me to say, but I'll wing it.
School is as it seems to be. I have no comment for the facility or faculty at the time, as I was rung into the website by some of my school comrades who suggested the site to me between waves of crumpled paper, erasers, gum wrappers, and pencils.
And so I'm here.
I'm generally known as the "quiet" one of the class and it is probably because of this that these people continually tell me to speak up/start laughing/say something/ etc etc. Others have called me smart. I have turned down the "gifted program" and am one of the few artists in our very small community.
I can give advice or an unbiased opinion for those who want it. I can also critique stuff, write songs, write poetry (which I can't find out how to post to save my life... So, one of my pieces is attached), and I work on stories. I spend a lot of time to just think, and I can talk about philosophy with enough time.
SO. That is me. Any questions?

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
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Welcome to SS.

Excellent job with the last poll option as well, meatbag.
04-23-2008 01:54 PM
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I do what I can. I'm just glad someone got the reference.

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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Dear Sleeper, I am glad you are awake, but I'll tell ya, living is easier when your eyes are closed...

(Could not help myself)

Welcome, though I did not read your poem, my version of word can't open that file, pity.

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Re: New, Silent, and Observer of Beings

Thanks.
I do think it is better to be awake anyway, I just feel like I'm asleep half the time. (Unless theres some weird conjunction of the moon the night before and... Never mind.)
And as for the poem, even I am continuing to find complications with it. But then, I'm still new to most of this. The system included. Maybe I'll find a way to get it tacked up with the other poems on this site.

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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Vatman Wrote:Dear Sleeper, I am glad you are awake, but I'll tell ya, living is easier when your eyes are closed...
Misunderstanding is a sin.....

Welcome

I highly suggest Mobb Deep's albums The Infamous and Hell on Earth, if you have not listened to it yet.
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SleeperAwakes: If you don't want this here, just tell me to delete it.

"Do we treat straight public sex differently than we do gay public sex? Of course. Straight people are so proud of their public sex that they named a cocktail after it."
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Nice poem.
And for those who can't download, here it is. Razz
Hidden stuff:
No one asks. No words.
Exchanging solitude for drama.
Silence was better. With it came understanding.
With this comes wisdom.
And this brings sorrow.

Feeling alone isn't the hardest thing to do.
Insignificance in numbers.
Bad day? Few question asked.
Then silence again.
I'm fine. I'm always fine.

No emotion.
Can't loose control.
Not allowed to go insane.
Always in command.

The rain is my ally.
The clouded vapor my friend.
And yet they try to keep me from even them.
Constant sky, send me snow again.

I am here.
They are here.

My name amidst the crowd.
A friend.
The cement mask slips away.

- SleeperAwakes

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04-24-2008 05:55 AM
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Re: New, Silent, and Observer of Beings

Hi there Wave

So you're the person who sent me like... 10 blank poems. Basically, you're supposed to copy and paste the text of the poem into the box before you send it... you can't send files. Biggrin

'Tis a good poem though. I also always preferred rainy days... damn sunny sky.

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Sorry about that. I couldn't figure it out really at all.
Wasntme Wasntme Wasntme It's kind of embarrassing actually.
Thanks for the welcome.
And I have a link for the poem. I put it on another website for what I thought was simplicity.
So.
http://soldierofzion.deviantart.com/art/Shadow-83676624
Thanks for the patience and, again, for the welcomes and saying hello.

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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Welcome Gov'ner.

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I picked the last option

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Thank you all. Looking over all of this makes me feel better. Biggrin And thanks again for bearing through the poem psi-co-ness.

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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Well, we wouldn't want you feeling left out. Just leave your sanity at the door.

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Sanity huh?
No. I try to keep that pretty close. I leave it at the door of the bus with Starth though, and pick it up when I go home.

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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We use sanity lightly, keep your intelligence and such, but don't try to make sense of about half the things we say (or more depending on the posters).

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I'll try to keep that in mind.

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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“I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.”
~ Edgar Allan Poe

hello! i think the others have adequately welcomed you, hope you like it here!

while its good to be awake, its only worth it if you know that you can get away without going back to sleep

you seem to be a very real person, yay!

liked your poem, alot, and agree

your sig is amazing...



SoulRiser Wrote:I also always preferred rainy days... damn sunny sky

agreed, sunlight is vital to your health apparently, how ironic

i am me myself and i
we are very much the same
different types of entities
under one single name


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Awesome! Thanks cryptevah72.

There's actually a story to the rain bit.
I do like it when it rains, and I had a known habit of going outside, especially when it was raining. Though it was still hard to convince my principal of the argument I was only able to come up with later. It was the dead of winter, we don't have PE (something about still not being an official school yet...), and the downpour was just there. After a time my friends started coming out with me and we started a water-fight. I got in "trouble". (I was singled out. Not necessarily something I'm proud of, but she later gave up the point and doesn't really say anything about it.) Plus, I haven't caught a cold from it yet!

I'm glad I come off as a real person. It would be, what's the word.. different if I wasn't.
And thanks for your welcome! It is very appreciated on my part. Biggrin

What I give form to in daylight is only one per cent of what I have seen in darkness.
M. C. Escher
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The nearest to my heart are a king without a kingdom and a poor man who does not know how to beg.
Khalil Gibran

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