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I suck at drumset, might just stop :/
I haven't really practiced alot, but It would honestly be a waste of time for me to start practicing again.

I'm working on a game now, don't know what to do next though. Its about this kid who defeats evil monsters with origami, hopefully I actually finish something for once.

I really hate school now, I feel like I'm being publicly humiliated just by being there. The work is so boring and pointless, I feel like my life is going to be extremely boring for a whole year, all I do is goto school, sleep, goto school sleep. School takes up so much time I just want to stay at home and stare at a blank wall, thats much better than having to goto school and dealing with school. I feel so sad all the time when I'm there, everyone seems so happy and cool and I feel like the kid that no one likes. no I AM the kid that no one likes. I envy most of my friends, they are just better than me in every way I could think of.

I'm so depressed now, I hate going through my day everyday. I feel more awake when I'm asleep, thats how boring it is being me. I stay up late just so I can delay waking up and going to school. :( EVERYONE IN MY HOUSE IS OBSESSED WITH SCHOOL AND THINKS YOU SHOULD GO EVEN IF IT IS RUINING YOUR LIFE. ITS SO BORING, I cant even comprehend why they think its important at all. ITS SO OBVIOUSLY A WASTE OF TIME WHY CANT EVERYONE SEE THAT?

I really want to go into a coma, it would be much better than going to school everyday.
09-20-2011 04:37 PM
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Don't stop practicing if it's something you enjoy doing! Also, I like your concept of a game, the different forms and folds of paper absorbing evil...poetic and badass at the same time.

(also I like to imagine ranting as a diagram)
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09-22-2011 09:19 AM
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I am such a bored. I have no friends, I don't ever hang out with anyone. I haven't since last year and I've only hung out with people like 3 times in my life. I could probably be the most boring kid ever. I never do ANYTHING and I'm so bored. I'm on break but I am bored, and when its over I'll be bored at school.
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Dude, you are just like me, wanna be friends? lol

(01-10-2012 02:15 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Efs, your nihilism is beautiful.
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Even though I've been making games for like 6 years, I still feel like I suck at it, and I have never made anything worthwhile. I spend too much time on the computer, because there is so much to do. I am addicted to it. I spend like probably 10 hours a day on breaks on the computer.
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(01-04-2012 07:01 PM)fish20 Wrote:  Even though I've been making games for like 6 years, I still feel like I suck at it, and I have never made anything worthwhile. I spend too much time on the computer, because there is so much to do. I am addicted to it. I spend like probably 10 hours a day on breaks on the computer.

I'm getting into game design. Do you want to help? What role would you be interested in?

(01-10-2012 02:15 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Efs, your nihilism is beautiful.
01-04-2012 07:11 PM
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(01-04-2012 07:11 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:01 PM)fish20 Wrote:  Even though I've been making games for like 6 years, I still feel like I suck at it, and I have never made anything worthwhile. I spend too much time on the computer, because there is so much to do. I am addicted to it. I spend like probably 10 hours a day on breaks on the computer.

I'm getting into game design. Do you want to help? What role would you be interested in?

I would have to be either a game designer or an artist if you are doing a 2d game.
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(01-04-2012 07:41 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:11 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:01 PM)fish20 Wrote:  Even though I've been making games for like 6 years, I still feel like I suck at it, and I have never made anything worthwhile. I spend too much time on the computer, because there is so much to do. I am addicted to it. I spend like probably 10 hours a day on breaks on the computer.

I'm getting into game design. Do you want to help? What role would you be interested in?

I would have to be either a game designer or an artist if you are doing a 2d game.

Sorry I'm doing 3d :(
Can you do 3d art?
You could be a back up designer or something if that's the only role you can do lol

(01-10-2012 02:15 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Efs, your nihilism is beautiful.
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(01-04-2012 07:45 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:41 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:11 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:01 PM)fish20 Wrote:  Even though I've been making games for like 6 years, I still feel like I suck at it, and I have never made anything worthwhile. I spend too much time on the computer, because there is so much to do. I am addicted to it. I spend like probably 10 hours a day on breaks on the computer.

I'm getting into game design. Do you want to help? What role would you be interested in?

I would have to be either a game designer or an artist if you are doing a 2d game.

Sorry I'm doing 3d :(
Can you do 3d art?
You could be a back up designer or something if that's the only role you can do lol

I might be able to do the music, depends on what type you need.
01-04-2012 08:03 PM
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(01-04-2012 08:03 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:45 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:41 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:11 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:01 PM)fish20 Wrote:  Even though I've been making games for like 6 years, I still feel like I suck at it, and I have never made anything worthwhile. I spend too much time on the computer, because there is so much to do. I am addicted to it. I spend like probably 10 hours a day on breaks on the computer.

I'm getting into game design. Do you want to help? What role would you be interested in?

I would have to be either a game designer or an artist if you are doing a 2d game.

Sorry I'm doing 3d :(
Can you do 3d art?
You could be a back up designer or something if that's the only role you can do lol

I might be able to do the music, depends on what type you need.

What type of music can you make? What programs do you use?

(01-10-2012 02:15 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Efs, your nihilism is beautiful.
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(01-04-2012 08:05 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 08:03 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:45 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:41 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:11 PM)Efs Wrote:  I'm getting into game design. Do you want to help? What role would you be interested in?

I would have to be either a game designer or an artist if you are doing a 2d game.

Sorry I'm doing 3d :(
Can you do 3d art?
You could be a back up designer or something if that's the only role you can do lol

I might be able to do the music, depends on what type you need.

What type of music can you make? What programs do you use?

Actually never mind on the type. I use Fruity Loops 10.
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(01-04-2012 08:09 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 08:05 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 08:03 PM)fish20 Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:45 PM)Efs Wrote:  
(01-04-2012 07:41 PM)fish20 Wrote:  I would have to be either a game designer or an artist if you are doing a 2d game.

Sorry I'm doing 3d :(
Can you do 3d art?
You could be a back up designer or something if that's the only role you can do lol

I might be able to do the music, depends on what type you need.

What type of music can you make? What programs do you use?

Actually never mind on the type. I use Fruity Loops 10.
Ah sweet, I have Fruity Loops as well, plus Ableton Live.
I'm not a pro at the software, so I might ask you for help in the future if needed.

(01-10-2012 02:15 PM)Maelstrom Wrote:  Efs, your nihilism is beautiful.
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I could do hand drawn stuff for concepts, not to good at actually manipulating stuff on the computer.
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School is the worst place ever I want to throw up.
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I hate life im just waiting until everything falls apart, im not even going to try.
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Ahh school is so boring. Suggest things to do that wont get me in trouble.
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WHAT? YOU WANT TO SKIP THE BOREDOM THAT SCHOOL IMPOSES? YOU'RE UNEDUCATED, BAD TEENAGER... YOU HAVE TO LEARN !!!

/sarcoff
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Why should i still live when everything i want is impossible to reach?
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Bleh
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