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At What Age Did You Start To Think School Was Wrong ?
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At What Age Did You Start To Think School Was Wrong ?

I've always loved being liked by other people, so I used to obey my teachers and work really hard to continue receiving their approval. When my classmates acted up, I'd feel primarily bad for the teachers(mainly because they were very kind). Over time, I started seeing my classmates side a little. I didn't really question school myself, but I was in silent agreement with my more rebellious classmates. Around this time, I started slacking on school work a little. Uncreative writing assignments, and anything else needing intense effort was either put off for hours or days. I remember being very stressed in 5th grade because I did work at or past midnight, trying(and failing) to sleep for a few hours, then waking up to work, sleeping for a few more hours, and waking up to work. When I failed and chose to sleep the whole night, I'd wake up with extreme anxiety about how the teacher would react.

Surprisingly, I still didn't question the necessity of the work that was torturing me.
I think I felt that it wasn't good, but believed I was in the wrong for being harmed by it.

From 7th grade through the beginning of 10th grade(this year) I was depressed. 9th grade was the peak. I half-assed all of my writing assignments because the class drained my love for writing, I cried and wanted to die every day after school, I was possessed by constant anxiety, I longed to go back to summer camp(the only place I truly felt happy), and I started slacking on shit I both cared and didn't care about. In 10th grade, I wasn't really depressed, but I was emotionally unstable and full of resentment. I stopped doing most of my assignments to the point where the majority of my teachers disliked me for the first time in my life, but I refused to give a shit. I didn't want to give a single fucking shit. I only liked P.E, Literature(only because our teacher was legendary for reasons I don't feel like saying now), and Drama class. The future was hopeless and my past free spirit was gone for ever. I feared adulthood so much(still do), and pretty much expected to die before the time could ever come.

Now I'm online schooled, but that is a different story.
I'd say I gradually realized the harm of school, with highschool consisting of in depth research into unschooling youth rights, etc, along with becoming conscious of the psychological harm school was causing me.

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